Addition into my Family Group!!

Ni pic waktu abang aku kawen kat klang.. Wife dier name nyer Ruziana. kitorang panggil Kak Rozi. dier sebaya ngan abg aku. actually diorang ni classmate kat UiTM Shah Alam dulu. punye lame diorang saba, akhirnye kawen gak. hikhikhik....

dari kiri, azhar(aku la tuh), ayah, kak rozi, anbia, anuar, mak, khairul bariah n her daughter Khairunnisa'imana, n abg Haikal (abg ipar aku merangkap suami kakak aku, n bapak kepada anak buah aku nisa')

its just a song

Dont Wanna Try...

(oooo)...dont wanna try dont wanna try (try try)
(oooo)..dont wanna try no more
(ooo)..dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try

Verse 1
i cant believe u had the nerve to say the things u said
they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
i cant believe it ..4 years go down the drain
oh how i wish things would of happened so differently
i tryd to save it so many times but you still couldnt see
u kept insistin and resistin that u would not fall again
and now u tryin to tell me that ur sorry
and ur tryin to come back home
ur tellin me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i

-Chorus
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin on when all we do is hurt our love

Verse 2
u and i had many conversations on the telephone
talks about one day we having a place of our own
wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
but all of that just seems so far away from me
had to wake up face reality
it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through
and now u tryin to tell me that ur sorry
and u tryin to come back home
u tellin me that u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i

-Chorus
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin on when all we do is hurt our love

[..fading into beat]
(dont wanna try dont wanna try)
(dont wanna try no more)
(dont wanna try dont wanna try..oo)

(dont wanna try dont wanna try)
(dont wanna try no more)
(dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more ooo)

Music and Soul!! Quotes for today..

Words make you think a thought. Music makes you feel a feeling. A song makes you feel a thought.”
E.Y. Harburg

“Music is more logical than the human mind can comprehend: yet we can recognize it and surrender to it. We cannot comprehend music but music can comprehend us.”
Peter Hiett

"It’s such an extraordinary thing, music. It is how we speak to God finally – or how we don’t. Even if we’re ignoring God. It’s the language of the spirit. If you believe that we contain within our skin and bones a spirit that might last longer than your time breathing in and out – if there is a spirit, music is the thing that wakes it up. And it certainly woke up mine. And it seems to be how we communicate on another level."
Bono

“Music isn't just learning notes and playing them. You learn notes to play to the music of your soul.”
Katie Greenwood

“Music is one of the ways we can achieve a kind of shorthand to understand each other.”
Yo Yo Ma

“Music is the shorthand of emotion”
Leo Tolstoy

“Music is a fair and glorious gift from God. I am strongly persuaded that after theology there is no art than can be placed on a level with music; for besides theology, music is the only art capable of affording peace and joy of the heart.”
Martin Luther

“After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music”
Aldous Huxley

“Music is the vernacular of the human soul”
Geoffrey Latham

“Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness”
Maya Angelou

“We need music to restore the human spirit”
Leonard Slatkin
Director of the National Symphony

"Music is so important. It changes thinking, it influences everybody, whether they know it or not. Music knows no boundary lines."
Irving Berlin

"Music is a discipline, and a mistress of order and good manners, she makes the people milder and gentler, more moral and more reasonable."
Martin Luther

“I think music in itself is healing. It’s an explosive expression of humanity. It’s something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we’re from, everybody loves music.”
Billy Joel

“Music has the power to move a person between different realities: from a broken body into a soaring spirit, from a broken heart into the connection of shared love, from death into the memory and movement of life. Music has the power to touch the heart of a child with God."
Dr. Deforia Lane
Music Therapist

“Without music, life itself would be an error. The Germans imagine even God singing songs.”
Friedrich Nietzsche

“Music is an outburst of the soul”
Frederick Deluis

“Music is God’s best gift to man; the only art of heaven given to earth, the only art of earth we take to heaven”
Walter Savage Lander

“It is only that which cannot be expressed otherwise that is worth expressing in music”
Annonymous

“Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, a charm to sadness, gaiety and life to everything; It is the essence of order and lends to all that is good, just, and beautiful.”
Plato

“Responsiveness to music is an essential part of our neural nature”
Dr. Oliver Sacks, Neurologist NYC

“Music, the greatest good that mortals know, and all of heaven we have below”
John Addison

“The only universal tongue”
Samuel Rogers

"My heart, which is so full to overflowing, has often been solaced and refreshed by music when sick and weary."
Martin Luther

“All art constantly aspires toward the condition of music”
Ibid. The School of Giorgione

“Music has charms to soothe a savage breast,To soften rocks, or bend a knotted oak”
William Congreve, The Mourning Bride (1697)

“Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life”
Berthold Auerbach

“We are a spectacular manifestation of life. We have language…we have affection. We have genes for usefulness and usefulness is about as close to a ‘common goal’ of nature as I can guess at. And finally, and perhaps best of all, we have music.”
The Medusa and The Snail (1979)

“Who hears music feels his solitude peopled at once”
Robert Browning

“Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent”
Victor Hugo

“I have my own particular sorrows, loves, delights; and you have yours. But sorrow, gladness, yearning, hope, love, belong to all of us, in all times and in all places. Music is the only means whereby we feel these emotions in their universality.”
H. A. Overstreet

“Without music, life is a journey through a desert”
Pat Conroy

“Music is well said to be the speech of angels; in fact, nothing among utterances allowed to man is felt to be so divine. It brings us near the infinite.”
Thomas Carlyle

“Just as certain selections of music will nourish your physical body and your emotional layer, so other musical works will bring greater health to your mind”
Hal A. Lingerman

“Give me the making of the songs of a nation, and I care not who writes its laws.”
Andrew Fletcher

Are you a dreamer??

1. Nothing happens unless first a dream.
2. Dream no small dreams for they have no power to move the hearts of men.
3. Because thou must not dream, thou need not despair.
4. A leader has the vision and conviction that a dream can be achieved. He inspires the power and energy to get it done.
5. Our dreams drench us in senses, and senses steps us again in dreams.
6. All men who have achieved great things have been dreamers.
7. Don’t be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so.
8. No person has the right to rain on your dreams.
9. All dreams can come true…..if we have the courage to pursue them.
10. I’m realising my dream of owning a top football club. Some will doubt my motives, others will think I’m crazy.
11. A man’s dreams are an index to his greatness.
12. The work goes on, the cause endures, the hope still lives and the dreams shall never die.
13. When you cease to dream, you cease to live.
14. The best reason for having dreams is that in dreams no reasons are necessary.
15. No lower can a man descend than to interpret his dreams into gold and silver.
16. One of the characteristics of the dream is that nothing surprises us in it. With no regret, we agree to live in it with strangers, completely cut off from our habits and friends.
17. If you can dream it, you can do it.
18. In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.
19. A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.
20. Dreams are pure thought, an opportunity to discover yourself.
21. To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.
22. Don’t let go of your dreams. If you have determination and belief in your dreams, you will succeed in spite of your desire to let go.
23. You see things; and you say, Why ? But I dream things that never were; and I say, Why not ?
24. The fulfillment of your dreams lies within you and you alone.
25. It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today and the reality of tomorrow.
26. Don’t let anyone steal your DREAMS
27. Dreams are necessary to life.
28. Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today.
29. Be careful what you wear to bed at night, you never know who you’ll meet in your dreams.
30. A dream is an answer to a question we haven’t yet learned how to ask.
31. The only thing that will stop you from fulfilling your dreams is you.
32. Thoughts are but dreams till their effects be tried.
33. Self-esteem must be earned! When you dare to dream, dare to follow that dream, dare to suffer through the pain, sacrifice, self-doubts, and friction from the world, you will genuinely impress yourself.
34. When your dreams tire, they go underground and out of kindness that’s where they stay.
35. Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

p/s: so, its not bad if u r a dreamer....:D

WAAARRRGGHH!!!!

wah...aku xleh tdo!!!! asek teringat kat awex aku!!! npe jd cmni??
pernah skali aku try lupekn dier, but, mmg xdpt... shes all around me!!!!
Syg plz stop doing thing yg sy x suke!!! u promised!!! remember???!!

Wake up in the morning!!

its a wonderful morning that i can remember... coz i had a wonderful dreams ever in my whole life!!
actually i jz had a fight with my gurl last nite.. but we manage to survive.. yeah, lame... but, i looked over her call list, it seems like she had a conversation thru sms with SK (again...) couple of times...
i dont know what were they talked about last nyte, but am pretty sure its nothing related with their studies.

i dont know how to say that i dont like her to do that again, coz i think she would understand how i feel.. i tried so many times to avoid azura calls, n i managed to free myself from it. how, how will she feels if i do the same way too?? its pretty bias i would say so..

but, luckily.... i got over it. i tried 2 make it simple. 'what goes around, will comes around'..... maybe she'll know it hurt so bad soon..




p/s: if u reading this, just ignore it....

Getting Engaged....

ni la gamba waktu kitorang tunang aritu.. dlm 5 ekor unta n 10 ekor ayam serama kitorang kenduri...

hahaha xdela, ni pic awex aku pg tunang kwn dier. saje taruk pic ni... sja nk kasi tau korg aku syg awex aku!! huhuhu

Nisa' found her Toy!!

So you know, we entered diz mall in malacca 2day, tried to find our 'baju raya'.. and apparently nisa' found her 'toy raya' instead! she jz grabbed dat 'mouse' thingy and hold em!! seriously my bro in law must have tried hard 2 make her let it go, even jz 2 put it at the counter 2 pay for it...sigh..

such a cute gurl isnt she?? perhaps i will get one of this cute creatures one day..... started 2 count my days now...

p/s; dont really think shes ready yet.. :C

So you know...

Do you know that feeling when you’re suddenly dragged into your own world, pretty much letting go of the chaos of everyday life? (which I’m doing at this particular moment by ignoring the oh-so-annoying whines of my lil brother on who’s turn to sleep at which side of the bed on what day of the week, sigh)

Letting yourself hauled into deep thought of nothingness and by this I mean not narrowing your mind into thinking of a particular something..You know, allowing your thoughts to, hmm, meander?

Every so often when I do this, I’ll start noticing things..Things that I deem not so worthy of my immediate attention, but are important and meaningful to me nonetheless. It’ll always start with petty stuffs like..

Why my post 4 blog didnt reached 100 yet?? ? (pretty slow progress if you ask me)

Why is my toothbrush always changing places from where I last put it? (hmm, I’m thinking this has something to do with my brother)

To bigger, significant ongoings in my life..

Is it one week left until my exam start? (O God, 1 week!)

Why do I still ‘tetido’ when I drive? Seriously dude, that, can cause major ‘accidente’=(

To deep and spiritual musings..

How can I be really khusyu’ in solah?

How many minutes of the hour on that day in that week do I spent to read the Quran? For all I know, that might just not be enough.

Come to think of it, how many times have I ever really stop to ponder? Living in today’s fast-paced world where everything pretty much goes with the glimpse of an eye, it’s the simplest I can do to at least slow things up. Take a break once in a while, but instead of having kitkat^^, isn’t it better for us to ‘start noticing things’?

Things that memories are made of..
Things that strengthen the ties and narrows the gap..
Things that help you become a better citizen of the world and a better Muslim of the ummah..

So you see, it’s good to loosen up sometimes and think things through..

MERDEKA!!!

it was da BEST merdeka celebration 4 me diz year.....coz i simply CELEBRATE it on my bed!! haha it was such a tiring day. i just got back from malacca n reached home like 0930pm. i couldnt even get 2 say 'merdeka' to my gurl yet...heh.

HobbY baru??

aku pun x tau dari mane dtgnyer hoby baru aku nie.. yg aku tau sejak aku tgk bdk2 cls aku asek amek gamba je, aku pun try amek 2-3 gamba.. pastu terus addict amek pic sniri huhuhu

H1N1

Baru2 nie kitorang dikejutkan ngan satu kes ngeri... H1N1 melanda UiTM segamat. And da worst part was ade sorang student part 8 Bacc meninggal..

so , kitorang suma pakai mask to prevent diz penyakit. mcm mls nk pakai, tapi takut mati maa....

pape pun, al-fatihah pada arwah...

My angel growing up!!!

haha anak buah aku dah makin besar!!! umur dah setahun dah!!

CUTI!!!

You know it’s high time to update your blog when friends are beginning to SHOUT that you should in the SHOUTbox. Phew, this blog needs major cleaning i tell ya*manyak cobwebs* (and yes t-rex, i know the grass needs cutting). Does anyone even read this blog anymore?Sorry for the late updates, i know i should’ve write something at least to imply that this blog is still on the go but i was just too immersed in even I don’t know what. Yup, ’cuti’ can sure do that to people eh?

Shhhhhh.....

Like a black sheep in a family....
but its all faded awaycoz 2day, i feel so lucky 2 have such nice and warm hearted clasmmates...
thnx guyz.....

to najib, riena, ieha, zaf thnx 4 ur support...n tq 4 kwn ngn aku. n 2 all my classmate yg xnk aku kene bar, i owe u guys.

to PM Kamel, no comment. hehe...xdela, sorry wat sir mara2. jmp next sem wif diff paper
bye

APRIL FOOL????

HEPI ANNIVERSARY to my beloved parents!!!

BILE RUMAHKU TERBAKAR!!!

Haaa...ni la die bahana lupe.patamak btol mamat sekor neh. punce segalaREZA> .ade ke bole lepak2 kt ruang tamu..isap2 rokok...tgk aku men DotA...padahal die lupe die ngah panaskn kuali kt dapor...ptt la aku rse panas smcm tetibe..toleh ke sebelah tgk dapor da tebakar...ampeh tol..cuak aku da..si patamak ni lagi la, tergamam..huhu...sep bek A.S. tolong padamkn..kalo x bole rentung sume dlm umh 2 kang..ateng da la tdo mmpos time tu..arm da sedo.tp rilex je..patamak tol..fuh..close call la jgk...sbb die aku pn fobia nk msk2 kt umh da..abes dapor umh...suram je jdk...da x ceria da suasana dapor 2..huhuhu...moral die..kalo msk, jgn nk g tempat len..tgk je dapor 2...skali jdk 2 tanda nyer nk bg warning je 2...alhamdulillah xjdk ape..k la...ati2 memasak..renung2 kn...huhu...

Demam........

argh.. arini aku rase letih giler. badan rase cam nk patah. dah la tulang jek. badan aku rase panas giler. Hidung xabis2 hingus....... pastu duk bwh aircond. mmgla TERbaik!!!

Sob..sob

its friday n i have 2 go wif my fren wat community service kat umah anak2 yatim muar. first b4 pegi rase cam malas sangat2!! giler rase cam xperlu suma tu... such a waste... i mara2 all da way nk pegi sane. its jz me n izwan in da car.... ktrg carut sane sini pasal mende nie. xtaula pe yg diorg yg len xcited sgt ngn wat mende nie. ktrg cam nk pukul je diorg tuh.
But after ktrg sampai, i tgk muke ank2 yatim tu, rase kesian.... memula no heart feeling langsung. but then after kenal ngn diorg, rs cam nk peluk plak sorg2. theres a twin ni, diorg yatim piatu. time ktrg wat prgrm muhasabah tu, diorg menangis gile2. sEDIH!!! xthn plak tgk. i took few pics but nnt i upload. haha

Getting 'High'!!!

its not dat kind of high dat some people might understand... its my 'temperature meter' heh..
2day i got busted by JPJ, damn... my fren wat hal again.. duh

I Dun Noe Y???

Last Saturday, sempat pegi Melaka met wif my owl frens... hang out til like 4am b4 we were asked 2 go back by da cops. duh.... none of diz gurl r mine.. am jz there 2 celebrate MR.E's gf bday...
it was so damn romantic dowh... never tot MR.E could b such a romantic guy (pathetic hahaha)... well, hope both of u will b 2gtr til ur last breath dude..

Light

'Walk 2 da lite...'
i jz can hold em 4 a few secs b4 i had 2 let it go.... it hurts so bad, but i still had to let it go...

its was a hard n tough decision to b made... if, she loves him so much, a much as i love her, just go... i'd rather to stay n look u from far apart..

it hurts so bad dat u even still call me... u said, is it ok if u still keep on calling me, and then i said; 'yeah sure'... but, actually bby, everytime u called me, i felt like u torn me apart! i love u so much...i dont know how to say NO!!

God luck with your new life...just remember, if u ever slipped, im always with u. i'll hold u. i'm with u facing the world, me n you....

to you...alia aisya... sy tgk awk dari jauh je pasni, sy akan ingat awk, sy xkn lupekan awk, sy sll syg awk... take care........sayang

ARGHHH!!!!

im coming PM KAMEL!!! xnk ponteng dah.., ampun!! hehe

U R INVITED

heh.. now you guys can put your comment in2 my blog...
thnx 4 ur concern... specially 'jiwakacaw'..

Hepi Burfday!!!!!!

hepi burfday ayah!!!!!!
smoga pjg umur, mura rezeki, kesihatan berpanjangan!!!!!

love,
azhar

CUTE...

huhuh.... yah i noe. so wht if get 2 xcited bout my niece?? jealous fella!!!

its time 2 wake up!!!!

i startd 2 realize smtg. after diz aku cube bangun awal n xnk ponteng2 dah!!! if sape2 terbace ni, if baik hati leh tolong kejutkan ak pagi...(specially my classmte).. if xnk xpe.

if u read this....

am sory so much... i noe where did u found out bout me.. i noe da limit, don't worry.

Shayne Ward

owh s**t!! my fren tb2 dtg n pasang diz song; "breathless- Shayne ward"........ arghh!!! i like da music but i hate da lyric SO MUCH!!!! it reminds me of da day i said something 2 someone, we were both promised n agreed something n i was so stupid 2 believe everythings gonna b fine! but i still wont regret my decision.... coz i noe, i want her 2 b hepi...

apart of da lyrics:

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say i do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how special you are

You leave me breathless, you're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless, I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams, so beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless.....

They were right.....

i closed my owl blog bcoz of diz new one...
I tried 2 b someone new but i still got hunted by d owl me.. when i almost b new, i got stucked by diz f**king limitation... sure 'she' was rite, i'll never b someone else. cz i felt so stupid whenever i tried 2 change. yesterday, i paused a minute when suddenly i felt so lonely....... i dun noe y. do i really need diz "new life"????

Not so smooth...

whats wrong of being me?????
ive tried so hard to make it possible.. i tried 2 b someone new..but yet, it stil doesnt concern u!!

Like d Owl Times...

this is my owl dumb fren.. nafiz aka dalat....
gler lame aku xjmp dier. dulu2 mase aku diploma dier r yg sll kejut aku bgn pagi. tp bukan dier pegi pun CIBAI!!! penah one day dier kejut aku bangun pastu dier suh aku kejut dier plak??? bengong pe??

MCD shooting!!!

hahah ni kat mcd segamat ngn membe umah aku a.s....

Single.....

would she hear me, if i calls her name....

Back 4 Good.....

pada hari jumaat baru2 nie, my owl fren came by n we hang out kat teratak... aku baru je abis test PD then trus pg mkn.. lapa dowh.. clas pm kamel telajak lagi.. adui. aku dah janji nk dtg.. cmne r??

HAHAHAHAHA

time 2 break da rules!!!!!
rase cam nak rompak bank je. tapi tbe2 naluri aku xsedap.

When da Lecturer gave a boring speech......

Family Baru!!!!

mase kakak aku kawen. yang sebelah aku tu kire abang ipar aku punye adek. yang baju kurung kebaya merah xnmpk muke tu....ehem... sepupu aku la huahuahua!!!

wajah2 seseorang itu dapat menggambarkan betapa murni atau busuknya hati mereka. pada contoh gamba di sebelah anda ialah gamba lelaki yang soleh dan berhati mulia....

What if.........

theres no music?? hah cant imagine how dat wud be difficult 2 me.... actually i'd like 2 form a band in here... but it seems like TOO hard 2 get along wif others... naaahh, mayb i'll jz stick wif d old band.

Trouble??

theres alwys way out... its jz da matter of effort.

SMILE!!!!

now i think i noe nape org ckp kecik2 dulu aku sgt comel. hahahaha!!!!!

My Dearest Niece!!!

This is my little angel!!! shes only 6 months ryte nw. adoreable ryte??? aaahhh.....

Wake Up Call!!!

Glad that finally aku bangun awal n pegi class kul 8!!! giler susah nak bangun hahaha... (pas smayang subuh trus ttdo). naseb baik aritu bapak aku call suh bangun. haha kalu x mmg dh lame bye2 class kul 8.

Why do you Think Am Not You???

dis is my pic taken by my beloved gurl... but shes barely mine ryte now.. she belongs t someone else.. BUT! i'll try somehaw, someday, to win her heart again, no matter how, what, coz i know, i cant stnad without her.

sayvior!! I need it??

2day, i started 2 feel such a dumbass.... tell me, did u ever met a guy who let his gurl 2 b wif someone else and pretend that everythings gonna b fine?? i did.... i jz tried 2 make it simple... if she loves me, she'll come back 2 me.