Little A.N.G.E.L took my HEART~

Baacchhhaaaaakkkk!!! Part II

2012-01-19T23:25:00.002+08:00

Ba..ba..ccchhaakkk!!

Haha ni la die bachak Part II...

So...sbnrnye aku agak mendiam kn diri bile xle nk conteng2 kat wall FB beliau ni. Aku baru je nk tulis pasal xle conteng kat FB beliau. Tup..tup..skali aku dpt bbm, beliau kate "I think u can start to write on my FB wall..." aku terbahak2 mcm pelakon jahat filem hindustan kejap. Mcm mne die ley tau?? Aku rase beliau ade pasang cctv ni kt uma aku.

So b4 dat, what heppend today, aku bukak FB. Cz she asked me to private some of our pics. Well, sungguh banyak gamba aku ngn alia lagi rupenye dlm tuh. Ade yg xtemampu nk delete mase dulu tuh. Hehe... Arini, dengan lafaz Bismillah, aku delete semua. Aku terima keputusan aku sniri. Aku biar kan semua tu jadi kenangan. Alia penah jadi yg terbaik dlm hidup aku. Tapi xbermakne bile dia da xde aku xboley ade yg terbaik skali lagi. Lagi pun, mungkin die dah hepi ngn hidup die sniri. Xperlu aku kacau2 lagi...

So...sambung lenkali.

bye2~

Baacchhhaaaaakkkk!!!

2012-01-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

Di kala malam yang agak panas ni...aku maen bacak2 ngn penuh girang... Walaupun aku xtau ade ke orang yg nak bace blog aku ni, tapi aku tau ade la yg sudi membace..Hahaha. Jadi, atas permintaan demi permintaan dari gadis2 litar di luar sane, ni abang rempit tgh menaip ngn penuh laju tuk anda ye... Sabaaaaa~

So...sebenarnye aku nk cakap tapi malu. Tapi, malu2 pun aku cakap gak la.. (jangan peduli kan aku, bace je..) Ibarat lepas kemarau panjang, pasti akan ade hujan. Macam tu la yang terjadi dalam hidup aku. Lepas aku jatuh terguling2 mcm tenggiling itu ari, aku di datangi oleh 'tiang lampu' yang putih yg menerangi hidup aku... Beliau (*merujuk pade tiang lampu tersebut) jue byk membantu aku dlm pelbagai masalah. Xde la bantu aku siapkan keje sekolah mahupun kira2 kerana beliau agak berusaha lebey kalau mende2 bernombor ni... Kitorang berkawan baik dan sangat baik!

Haa... ayat ni tergantung di sini sbb aku nk wat Part 2 nnt..Hohoho!!

tata n gubye!!

Final Chapter...

2011-12-24T03:19:00.002+08:00

The fact that i keep on writing this, not because that i wanted ppl to knw about me. Im not trying to tell everyone bout how i feel, bout my life... Cz i jz wanted to let all the sad goes away. I thought that by writing this to my wall, the sad will also sticked to this wall. But i was wrong... It could never heal anything. The pain wont go anywhere.

Since this is the last chapter, i would like to thanks to everyone that had being nice to me. I will not hate anyone. I can not hate ppl that i love.

Be happy...

Regards,

Azhar

Its a Fact...

2011-12-04T12:51:00.002+08:00

There is something that no matter how hard we put our effort into, it still cant be ours. Not even years can assure it. It was never designed for u. It was totally different pair of shoes. But, they still not believe and sadly Im one of them. Until one day, I’ve started to realize…

She is someone’s Minami~

She is the last entry~

2011-11-21T15:28:00.000+08:00

Apart of having my life upside down, still I believe hope will always there. It just depends on how we can handle the pressure. If we start to give up, we won’t achieve what we want. No matter how bad, how we’ve must hurt, if u really wants it, go get it!

I started to realize that this is what I want. I’m too stupid if just let it slip this time. Not this one. But I don’t want to be too pushy. I know things might need some times to work out. But I had to be patience a bit. Let the other side decide. Coz I’m all ready from my side.

But all I’m asking from that side…be firm with what u wants.

The Last Entry~ So that is my Life~

2011-11-20T17:48:00.002+08:00

Hye…

Today, I just wanna share something called short miracle that just happened in my life…. Sit back, get ur popcorn or snack, and start reading..

When my life was turned upside down, I couldn’t even think straight. Everything seems to be not interesting. The foods became tasteless. I’ve tried to convince myself that I could get away from this mess. But it all seems to be…useless. People kept asking me bout my status, they even said how sad that it could end like that. The only thing that I could give back to em was just a fake smile. I’m too tired to think bout what had happened. I gave myself a chance to be happy again.

So I just wanna keep this story short, I found someone. At least she could accept for what I am. I’ve downloaded everything bad bout me. Everything that I heard from someone after almost 7 years been together. I don’t know how to be romantic. Sometimes I can barely talk and I can be so quiet. I liked to be with someone that I loved…ALWAYS. I’m a boring type of person. I’m not a good partner if u asks me to a shopping mall. So, she said she can deal with that. Lot of things I’ve tried to show myself to her, and she was just so well absorbed it. So I gave my trust to her….~

We spent times together. We shared all our experiences to rebuild a better understanding. She helped me to stop thinking bout my past. I couldn’t even remember when was the last time I cried. I spent all the times to cherish the moments together. I cant stop looking at her face and believe me I did spent most of the time just staring her. When I looked at her, I just wanted to say:

“Lets stop this and let it be real this time”

“Cant u see that all I wanted is right in front of me??”

“Did u know that I don’t have any HOLD buttons in my heart to stop loving u??”

But, miracle will always shine for glance. Well, I guess just for my case only. Coz now, I need to put a GAP again. The same old time song whispered again,

“I need my time to be alone..”

That’s how the 7 years relationship ended…and probably this will too. But, how to stop something that not even started. I didnt had a chance to call her mine. We both not even declared anything. So, it was my fault again to put a hope. Coz i just thought this time it will be different. My bad...i just started to feel that she was mine. But, shes not.

Im a ball.. just wait till the referees to blow the whistle again to start the kick off session. Maybe I really should seek for a doctor. I just wanted to scan my heart if it really does have a HOLD button somewhere. Please take off that piece of glass inside too coz i think its getting deeper stucking into my heart.

But I didn’t blame anyone. I can accept whatever happened to me. Clearly, im just not good enuff to be with. Well I just hoped that whenever I’ll read this again, the same thing wont happen and i can smile while reading this.

Probably He just wants to test me…Thank you Allah. Alhamdulillah~

Sincerely,

Jaa / Azhar

Nice Quotes...But

2011-09-27T14:15:00.002+08:00

Today, i've read a beautiful quotes which i thought really nice. It says :

" A guy that can accept your flaws, love you unconditionally, kiss u on your worse & call u beautiful no matter what is a guy worth loving."

Well, it just a quotes. No one really actually cares bout it. Coz they just to busy with other people to see that guy's love... They will only learn when they learn it themselves.

-Azhar-

About me..i..n Just me

2011-09-25T17:31:00.002+08:00

Of all the lies i've heard, "I love U" was my favourite. Actually, when you broke up, you never really stop loving someone. You just learn to live without them. So, should i smile because you're my friend or cry because that's all we'll ever be? I dont know how to say this, but if i can say this again..i would say right in front of her..."Dont leave me...I LOVE U" But, i am no one to compare with. Im nothing to her. Maybe she really want someone better.

Uninvited Guest

2011-09-19T03:53:00.002+08:00

Today...

I just came to be the uninvited guest. I didnt knew that she had an open house today. So i came. I felt strange. It feels awful. I can feel pain. I ate the food that wasnt even made for me. Thanks to her mom, she made me felt better anyway. But still i knew they were all never thought that i'd come. They had a shocked face i can tell that. Suddenly i felt so....small. I felt like a disgusting creature with no room to be one of them. I hold the pain, i hold my tears. All i wanted to do was just to see her. I hate with what i'm doing but i just cant stand to resist my feelings. I can sit and do nothing just to see her all day. I missed her so bad! Does she loves me too? Missed me too?? If she loves me then y she leave?

All i can see from her face today, she was just hoping that i would leave fast. Just like the way she wanted to forget bout me...very fast.

Honey,if one day...if u found this, read this. Read everything that i ever wrote. Cz i nvr was a good in talking. I know i spoiled the chance tonite, but that wasnt really what i wanted to say. And today, i realized something. I trust when u said that u dont love me anymore.

The reason i came coz i wanted to tell u.....that i love u. Eventho im too disgust to be yours, but this is the guy who never leaves u at all time. I alws there for u whn u lose ur frens, whn u being hate by others. But im just too small to be seen when u had everyone. Thnk u syg...

Wil alws love u, just u....

A Day to Remember

2011-09-15T11:51:00.002+08:00

Its 2 am…I woke up and rushed out to get something.

The story started when she needs to complete her group task. They were told to make few things to win in a competition. She thought she could handle everything. She thought her team can win. She struggled and put a lot of effort into it. I can see her strength. I knew she could win it.

Few days had passed. She came to me with a draw on piece of paper which I thought it was nice. She just has to cut and follow the lines to make it complete. So she cut it and gets a hard paper to stick with it. We went few places to find few things to make it even better. We had different ideas but we managed to get the solution. We bought few things like balloons, sponge, water colors and other things that we thought can help. So she left it with me to settle it.

So I went back home. I helped her to complete the task. I put a touch up to make it looks great. But the next morning, she called and said she really wanted to win. Due date is going to be one day left. So she said her group just wants to have real things rather than the models. I just said ok. I can see how she was so disappointed thru her voice.

Late night, she called again. This time she expressed her disappointments. She cried to me. I know, all she wanted to be was the best. I was asleep when she called. I was so tired cz I had a terrible day. But when I heard her tears, i couldn’t let it. I told her ; “Don’t worry, I will help u.” I didn’t tell her that I would settle it. I knew she might be worried if I stay night to help. I looked at the time, 2a.m….I rushed out to get few things to make the best model for her.

I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to make that model, n what should I attach so that it could be a great model. I just go out. I went few places and I had that model on my mind. So I grab the things that can be use. I rushed back home. I didn’t waste my time. I started to make the model. I didn’t care the time, n the fact that I had to leave early morning to work. I just put my concentration on that thing so that she can have the smile and wipe the tears. I’ll sacrifice everything for her. Its 5.50a.m when it’s all done. I looked at the model again, its not really in a good shape with what I had in mind. But I did try my best.

So early morning I called her to know the status. She said the competition will end by noon. So I told her I got something to hand over. She said ok n will meet up in the afternoon.
It was a great job I had coz my job needs to be out of office most of the time. So I use the time to see her. When I came there, I can see her was unhappy. So I passed her the model. The only thing that I looked first was her face. I can see her smiled. She was happy. She holds my hand. I felt happy for her.

So I went back to finish my job. She smiled and waved her hands to me. With a flying kiss was our greatest sign of love. Like a trademark. I turned around and started to leave with every single step I just keep on thinking will she liked it?

Today, I just wish that she can remember this. Remember that eventho I always make her sad, n I was a boring person with no romantic sensation at all………I just hoped that she’ll remember that I did sacrifice everything just to let her smile.

“Whenever I’m around, I wont let u disappointed” Alia : March 2006

Adapted from;
-Pacifier-

50cents coins collection status : Stopped

When i opened my YM after so long...

2011-09-13T10:48:00.002+08:00

Here what i've got...

you know I couldn't keep my 'mouth' shut, don't you?

5:02 PM

so here it is, my two-cents

5:02 PM

I know those feelings that you have rite now. The exact same feelings I had with you back then.

5:04 PM

The "I know he'll come back" feelings. The "I know he'll be mine if I just try a little bit harder". The "I know he will be mine again if I just keep on trying harder and harder and never give up. Because in the end, he'll definately comes back."

5:04 PM

You did come back.

5:04 PM

But not for long.

5:05 PM

It means you are never meant for me.

5:05 PM

Mark my word, friend.

5:05 PM

One day you'll let go.

5:06 PM

salam.

So now i know...im running in the circle of life...

Its 11/9/11

2011-09-11T09:28:00.002+08:00

Aku xtau ape aku patut buat. Sekarang aku xde tempat nak pegi. Aku cume duduk dlm opis. Guard pun pelik. Hahaha.. Nak tau cmne aku end up kat opis? Camni cerite nye............

Aku xde sape2 nak luah pape aku rase. Semalam aku cube tenang kan hati. Aku cube lepak ngn kwn2. Aku cari balik kwn2 lame. Lepas sorg2 aku pegi. Aku pegi open house Linda, then g jmp Iskandar, pastu jumpe Bgore n last lepak studio. Aku cube hepi, tp semua asek tny aku, "Nape monyok je bro?" Hahaha aku senyap je xjwb.

Dorg ajak lepak minum, aku senyap. Ajak jamming tgn aku main gitar pn jd slow. Sampai band Hujan ade lepak pn dorg tegur aku nmpk lesu. Aku cume senyum n ckp xde pape. Aku berterima kasih atas keperihatinan dorg semua. Dorg kidnap aku bwk jenjalan n try tny pe mslh. Aku xluah pun. Mslh aku, biar la aku je tanggung. Dorg bwk awex2 n suh knl2 ngn aku. Aku xtau la tp mslh aku bkn ley settle ngn lepak bersame gadis2 murah cmtu.

Bile aku pndg pmpn2 tu, aku nk je suh dorg balik. Dorg xtau ke malu? Then ade la sorg tuh yg peramah sgt dtg duduk seblah aku, bkn pe sbb sofa yg kosong seblah aku je. Die ajak borak2. Aku lyn kn je. Mulut berbau arak xhingat. Nk je aku maki. Tp aku sedar aku pn bkn baik sgt. Mungkin ni tempat aku. Mungkin ni jalan tuk aku.

Aku perhatikan je minah ni, dgn rokok sambil berborak rancak. Aku pura2 suke lyn. Asap da berkepul2 aku lemas...Aku tahan kn je. Mcm2 la die citer. Psl clubbing la, laki la, tah pape la topik bangang die tuh. Siap cerita lucah bagai. Die tu tau x die pompuan?? Ko nk wat sex ngn sape2, sekali dua tiga org pn yg ko cite kt aku pehal?? Orang da barai mcm ko ingt ade org nak wat bini ke?? Da berape byk bekas air mani laki dlm ko pn aku xtau. Pastu die tny psl facebook. Mintak aku add die. Mmg sampai bile2 pn xde ku approve kwn~ Tp aku terus kn senyum je...

Then sorg2 ttdo. Tgl aku ngn minah ni je yg berjage. Aku mmg xde rase nk tdo, n ade kwn berborak mmg la sgt di perlukan. So aku melayan je laa. At least aku lupe yg aku sunyi jap. Then suddenly die kate da ngantuk nk tdo tp da xde tmpt. Dorg sume da tdo bergelimpangan kt dlm studio ni ngn botol la, kayu besbol la, besi la. Aku bg la idea bodoh kat die "U balik la uma je. Sini da penuh kot." aku gelak. Then die tny aku xngntuk ke? Aku jwb blm lg tp aku stay sini jap nk rilek2. Die pn ajak la aku lepak uma die sbb die kate die pn blm ngntuk sgt (tetibe td da ngntuk) n ley borak2 kt uma sbb xnk kaco len tgh tdo nnt bising. Aku mmg tgh bosan, so aku ckp ok je.

Sblm ktrg gerak aku tny die ade sape kt uma. Die ckp "Xde sape pn. Xpyh risau." Hahaha kalau die nk tau itu yg plg aku risau. Aku cepat2 suh die kejut sape2 lagi ajak lepak skali. Tp die xnk. Die terus amek kunci kete n ajak aku turun. Firasat aku rase xsedap. Aku terbayang awek aku.

Sayang..if ini yg boley buat saye lupe pade awak....maaf kn saye.

Aku turun pg kt kete die. Pukul 5 pagi ptt la sejuk...aku bukak pintu kete die. Aku ckp bebaik.."I nk jmp gf i..." Aku xtau pe motif aku ckp mcm tu. Maybe niat die betul2 jz nk ajak lepak je kt uma. Tp aku rs bersalah. Aku just ckp mcm tu n die phm. Pastu die jz ckp take care n gerak. So...aku sunyi balik~

Aku cube carik tmpt lepak tuk tenangkn otak. Aku cube adapt balik kwn2 lame aku. Mungkin ni tempat aku. Bersame2 kwn2 yg xde mase depan.

So aku pn start enjin n gerak ke mane pn xtau. Akhirnye sini la aku end up... Opis~

Worst Day

2011-09-07T17:54:00.002+08:00

Hye all,

Worst day of yesterday... Dayyuum!! I shaking like shivering in cold. But i felt so hot inside. Puke here n there. Arrghh!! I tried to get some help. Ask few frens to drive to clinic. But its alrdy midnight. Most of them alrdy half dead... So finally i got one help from this guy. He offered me a help. Nice.....

We went to Tengku Ampuan Rahimah Hospital.. So the attendant said just a fever so u can wait.. WTF?? So i've to wait like 2hours to get the treatment. Still my number wasn't called yet. Suddenly, i felt uncomfortable. So i puked.... Yess....in front of everyone. Sigh~

But then the attendant rushed to me and take me to the treatment room. My body temperature was so high! So they asked me to give a blood sample. So they took it.... Only after half an hour they called a doctor. So the doctor treated me. He said i need to stay for a while. So he injected me and to be warded. They dripped me almost 2 pines of water.

I was asleep till the sun rise. Ahh...what a comfortable feeling!! So i hurry to wake up and ask the nurse whether i can leave or not. She said i've to wait for the doctor first. So i wait~

I searched for my phone and found it. The ever first thing to do... wishing good morning to the most adorable creature in the world!! Cant wait to see her again. So when the doctor allow me to leave i was so happy. The nurses looked me weirdly. They asked me : " Why are u seems to be so happy?" I just replied ; "I didn't bring my phone charger. I can charge my phone soon".

Then the doctor asked me again: "Why is that so important to you?"

So i replied; "Its not...but without the phone i cant contact someone. And if i cant contact that someone, i'll die".

The doctor just laughed and said "You're still too young to fall in deep love. Find few to cover your selves". Well of course, but i gave him something to think: "Who set the rules you can only fall deep into love by age?" And he looked me so i continued "We have pair of eyes, pair of ears, pair of hands, pair of legs...but why He created our hearts without any pair? Cz He made us to share with someone else....not with everyone."

The doctor just nod n told me to get marry soon. Well dont worry, i will. With only that one. The one that i've been sharing my heart with....

Its me again~

2011-09-06T01:25:00.002+08:00

Hye readers,

Today, i just realized something. Something that i shouldn't have missed. Yes...i found my strength back!! I realized that i was so weak before. I couldn't even stop crying.

I went to bed early today but i couldn't close my eyes. I woke up and went to bath room. I took a wudhu' to performed solat Istiqarah n Hajat. It was just between me and Him all alone... I wished for everything that i couldn't have. So then i went to bed.....again~

It only took me around 2-3 hours...then suddenly i woke up. I felt so incredibly strong!! I can make the decision. I don't know how, but i felt that decision was so strong!! I tried to reach my phone but maybe instead of telling her, i should let her know herself. But suddenly i saw a message in my inbox. So i opened it. It says :

"For your love to your country, you'll die for it. For the love of your family, you'll fight for it... And If you love somebody, you'll fight n die for it. Cz she/he have your heart. When he/she is gone, it will take along your heart n leaves you heartless. No man can survive without a heart to live. Don't run bcz you'll never live without it."

It was sent by +6012326**** (yeah i won't publish this number). I tried to call back n say thanx. But i can hear someone picked up with only no one were talking. I said hello few times but still, silence~ So i thought maybe the line had some trouble so i redialed again. This time, i heard something. It was a small voice with someone coughing. I shouted n said " Who ever is this I just wanna say thanks!!" Then the line was disconnected. Then I hit the redialed button again, but this time, i couldnt get thru. The phone was off. So i just leave a text to say thnx..... and a cute emoticons face~ ;P

So now, Im so grateful. Thank you Allah for helping me. And thank you for sending someone to help me...And to whom that sent me those messages, I really appreciate your help. Such a nice words. You will remain my undercover agent. So i named you 'Ms Good Heart'...Hoho!!

And...thats it for now. See you again, but maybe not tomorrow guys!! I need something to spice up. Something that is not common and usual...Something that I don't do everyday. I need some plan cz......I've a girl to catch!!

Love ya all!!

Salam!

Current 50cents coin status ; Still in progress~

Should I Laugh?

2011-09-05T20:06:00.002+08:00

Its been second day...

Today, i had a news...i don't know how to rate this news cz it can be bad but it also can be a good one. So here is the story....

Someone jz msg me n told me something that i don't think i would say yes. She asked me quite few times to reconsider bout her proposal. I may sounded so cruel cz i jz laughed at her. But i already told her that it was not something that i can consider. Yup it may help me to recover, but the thing is, what if I don't want to?? What if my current situation can be better? And the most important part is, I can't accept others.

She called me instead. She said that she could be better. Well guess what, I don't even compare! I told her that I am truly happy right now. What i had was already the best! Don't say you can be better cz i don't even want to see it!

After that, she jz said that maybe i need some times to think about it. But i just answered "I don't have any rooms left in it..." cz i already gave all to someone else.

Truly i said, we did had a lot of chat before. We met before quite few times. She also did proposed before. But the time was just not right cz she knew I wont consider at all. I don't even knew she had that kind of feelings. But I am truly sorry. I just don't want to break another's heart. Cz i know, I will never leave the one. My answer will be NO...and it will remain till 31st of February.. Get that date n come back to me surely I'd say yes. Forever my heart will be for the one. Sorry~

I can forget about the one. But I just can't forget why I am here, bcz it is for me and the one..

Collecting 50cents coins in progress...~~

Current amount = RM305.50

Till next round,

See ya!!

Say no to lalala!!

Hari Raya Hari Mulia...

2011-08-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

Malam Raya....

Malam Raya yg sunyi ni, aku teringat pd someone yg sll di hati. Sll nyer die akan call n wish Slmt Hari Raya. Ktrg akan bertukar2 cerita. Ktrg gelak sama2. Msg2 rindu tuk berjumpa tp aku jauh....Tp bile jumpe aku sll jd kelu. Tutur kate semua aku cuba control. Sbb xnk terkasar n sakit kn ati dier.

Mungkin silap aku sbb berangan terlalu jauh. Aku terlalu meletakkan harapan. Aku x pernah bg ruang pd sesiapa tuk berkongsi hati aku kecuali Si Pencuri Hati.

Aku xsalah kn sesiapa. Aku cuma slh kn diri aku sbb xprnh dpt jd yg terbaik. Tp aku xprnh jd kn tu alsn aku tuk duduk selesa. Aku ttp berjuang tuk mencapai matlamat aku. Bkn kerana sesiapa, tp tuk aku sendiri.

Orang cakap bila hilang akan ada pengganti. Tp aku xnk pengganti. Tgn yg aku pegang, pipi yg aku cium bkn yg same.

Aku rindu kn si pencuri hati... Mungkin dia xdpt bace ni semua tp aku sgt harap dia dpt tau yg aku xpernah lupa kan die walau sesaat. Aku xkn lepaskan die walau aku xde. Biar org ckp aku bodoh, biar org ckp aku terhegeh2....

Maaf lah kwn2, aku bkn xdgr nasehat...soal ni, aku xkn ubah pendirian. Sbb aku bkn bercinta tuk cari gf, tp tuk jadi isteri. Bila isteri, dia lah family. Bila family...aku pertahan sampai mati!

-unknown-

p/s: Ni bkn cerita aku. Kwn aku yg tgh depress.

Ya Allah~

2011-08-28T14:48:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah~

Terima kasih di atas pemberian Mu. Kau telah wujudkan insan tercantik untuk ku. Kau jadikan dia menyayangiku. Kau membantu menyerikan hidupku.

Ya Allah,

Bantu lah aku menghadapi kesusahan sebegini. Hilangkan lah rasa benci antara kami. Kuat kan lah semangat kami. Jadi kan lah kami sebagaimana Kau jadikan Adam dan Hawa yang hidup berpasangan hingga ke akhir hayat. Berilah kami kekuatan untuk terus menyayangi antara satu sama lain. Pertahankan lah kami.

Ya Allah,

Murah kan lah rezeki ku. Berilah aku kejayaan yang berpanjangan. Berilah kami jodoh untuk bersama hingga ke akhir hayat. Jadikan lah pergeseran antara kami hanya untuk teladan dan bukan perpisahan.

Ya Allah,

Sesungguhnya hanya dia sahaja yang aku sayangi. Berilah kami hidup bersama. Jadikan lah kasih sayang antara kami bukan kerana harta dan paras rupa. Sesungguhnya tiada pengganti dirinya padaku. Berilah aku kekuatan untuk membentuk peeribadinya. Berilah dia kasih sayang untukku yang tiada batasnya. Jadikanlah dia sebagai isteri, dan teman hidup ku selamanya.

Amin Ya Rabbalalamin~

Hambamu.

My Total Failure

2011-08-28T03:58:00.002+08:00

Today,

What that i supposed to do was to cheer her up. But then again, as usual, I've spoiled it. I never wanted to be such annoying to her. I tried to control my hands from reaching my phone but i couldn't helped it. I always had the phone in my hands. Both of them and one more inside my pocket. I just hoped that she'll call and tell me to call back at least.

I missed her...everyday. I tried to keep busy just to make sure that I won't remember about her for a while. I called few friends, boys, girls, and say hello and tried to make a conversation with them. But the first question that always came from them, "Hows your girlfriend..?" Seriously?? How can i forget about her then??

I really loved her. I know, I've done a lot of mistakes. A lot of things that I can't get it back. But i will not stop to love her. I will try whatever i can to win her back!! I will not give up! Shes my one and forever be..

Continued..

When My Life is Your Game....

2011-08-28T00:01:00.004+08:00

Here...

Im writing again.. I dont have anyone else to talk to. This is the only place where i can at least feel better. When Im down, I dont need crowd to cheer me up. I dont need that. Cz i've already had someone who supposed to be there when Im in need. Someone who was supposed to back me up when Im down. But...

Im in a lot of pain...i've worked hard, just to make sure that things will be right. But it turns out to be...no one were there for me. Even the right person that I needed most, cut me into bleed. Im already in pain dear, then you came to stab me right in front of my eyes!! Why did you hate me so much?? Im struggling for us cant you see that?? I wanted to build a better tomorrow for us! Promising future for the BOTH of us!!

You said that you loved me. You said that you never wanted to see me in pain..Then what are you doing right now dear?? Is this how you love me? Or should i say, is this how much you HATE me??

Did i ever throw you away whenever Im happy with my friends or someone else? Did I ever forget to tell you how much that i loved you?? Did i ever compared you to someone else?? Did I ever lose focus on you??

WHY YOU HATE ME THIS MUCH???

WHY YOU WANT TO SEE ME BLEED THIS WAY??

This is NOT a GAME!!

Dont say "lets try..for few months" coz this involving my life!! If you want to try to be better, not look for better itself, but YOU need to IMPROVE yourselves to be better!!! If you want to save what you have, not by throwing them away!! If you want to improve any relations, NOT by getting yourselves away!! If you really loved and you really care, then why you wanted to destroy it?? Why dont you put at least effort to help us to survive??

Dear.... I know, its was not the thing that you said were the real answers from you. The truth was hidden in yourselves. Now Im helping you to unhide it. Coz the answer is..... you NEVER LOVE ME FROM THE START!!

Regards,

_unknown_

Aku Hanya Satu Kesilapan Mu

2011-08-25T02:37:00.003+08:00

When the first time i saw u, I know we can be together for the rest of our lives.

When the first time u said that u love me, i really thought that we own the future together.

When the first time i touched u, i always thought that u'll b mine forever.

When the first time u hug me, i really thought that i'm yours.

When the first time u were on my shoulder, i never wanted anything else.

But...

I never thought that I was just a mistake...

How could this Happen to Me? (Part 2)

2011-08-21T16:54:00.004+08:00

I never regret when i want some changes happen to me. I never think that the changes will cause any trouble. But, recently i always think why did i change for?? If all these changes suppose to make her happy, then why she claimed not so?? Why?? Sometimes when i walked n passed by few guys who was just like me before, i wanted to tell em dont change!! Its ur life!! I know am stupid but at least i know if changes means nothing, why need to?? You tried so hard, but no one realize that you've been struggling for like killing urselves! Changes means u have to kill the old characters of yours and start a brand new one..That was almost impossible thing to do!! And I did it!! I killed myself before just to make u happy for God sake!!

Great! its raining now... Storm n lightning...great combinations. Am sitting here alone. I used to play outside when its raining.. I feel great...But when it comes to storm and lighting, it used to be my greatest fear. Back there when i was 7, I almost got strucked by lightning. Had a few scratch coz it almost strck me and I fell down from my bicycle. I never play outside again when its raining. But...ever since i knew she also scared of those lightning, I pretend to be not. I came to her with an umbrella and keep her from rains. She wont realize that my hands were shaking when i hold the umbrella. I let her by my arms and let her with me so I can protect her. When the lightning strucks, she quickly hold me.. i can feel her fear. But all i do is keep on to be with her......She never knew that when the lightning strucked, her fear that made me stronger.

How Could This Happen To Me

2011-08-21T15:43:00.001+08:00

I really wish to see her Happy...But the sad thing is..I cant have her. But i promise her that i’ll be there for her whenever she might lost n need someone to hold on.

Can i do it?? Can i really do that? Can i control myself from falling deep in love with her?? Can i call her name and pretend that i’m just someone else? Maybe she can... But i can’t.

But..i will let my feeling flow...i’ll fill it with our memories...i’ll wait as long i need to. I’ll wait as long as she needs me. I’ll wait, and will never say give up.

I will find that happine$$$$....for you~

How could this Happen to Me?

2011-08-21T15:22:00.006+08:00

I really wish to see her happy. But the sad thing is i can't have her, but i promise her i will be there for her...Can i do it? Can i control myself from falling deep in love with her? No....

But i will let my feeling flow..i will fill her up with my love.. i'll wait...as long as i need to wait..i'll wait. I wont give up! I miss u~

Waiting for My Star To Shine~

2011-06-28T23:54:00.002+08:00

I am still normal and still waiting to stand out. I want to succeed in life as well. But, practically, there is still nothing i can be proud off for myself. I'm still the old me, sitting here with nothing. Allah, please help me.... Give me courageous to walk thru all this obstacles. I want to change, & i really need to do something...

Thesis Oh Thesis

2010-10-27T01:25:00.002+08:00

Mende ni da lepas da dari tarikh aku p0st kat blog ni... Tapi aku insist nak citer gak. Da lame plak aku x berbuaL kat sini... So cmni la citer nyer.........

Bile start abes prektikel aritu aku ingat da bebas la. Skali rupenyer ade satu lagi azab yg pedih menanti...VIVA. Aduh~ Aku kna la prepare baik2. Report thesis kna siapkan secepat mungkin. So aku buat la chantek2, baek2 kasik dapat penghargaan... fuhh panjang gak la jadinye thesis aku tuh.

On the day VIVA (ni bukan kereta viva ye pade yg bengap; dulu mak ko suh g skola ko ponteng nape?) aku da cuak. Aku harap2 la dapat perform. Kasi la aku "A"!!! Ya Allah lancarkan lah tutur ku dan berlah aku kekuatan!

Sekali aku masuk bilik bersama panel aku, Mr Lee Tan Luck. Sepatutnye 2 orang ngn Mr Aziz tp dier xdpt dtg. Then proceed la ngn Mr Lee. Aku "pung-pang" la sane sini. Kecoh sane sini. Tipu depan belakang papela sume aku wat.. Dah puas aku berceloteh, die suh aku relax... then dier ckp "Awak jgn risau, markah sy da tolong. Betulkn report je sket lg."

HUH????
Aku tanye "Dats all??"

Die jawab..."Yup..da g mkn"

Hahahahaha!! Alhamdulillah!! Aku terus hepi n rase cam nak peluk2 je Mr Lee tuh. Agak2 lau dier pmpn da lame aku ajak kawen~

So akhirnye aku kna betulkan report tu sket2. Byk gak la yg aku edit. Tambah sane sini. Then aku nk hantar wat hard bound kat segamat. Sekai mahall kot. RM65 woii!! Bengong tulll..... So aku decide wat ngn member aku kat Melake... Baru RM 25 je....nmpk x beza?? bape byk diorang tipu...Cibai tul~

So ngn berbekal kan report tu, aku call tny PM Kamel aku anta ari Rabu. Pastu tetibe nk dijadikan magik lak, dier suh taruk journal dalam tu...HAH??? Da la aku dah 90 lebey pages ni. Tambah ngn journal kang...berape plak jadi nyer?? Mnerusi perbualan telepon kami...

"Kalau awk nak A masuk la journal...."Pm Kamel berkate

So tanpa byk tny...aku pun tambah la... Nak kopak gak la duit aku ni. Sbb semuanya ade la dlm 300 lebey page~ haaa...... Pening pale aku. Nk wat hard bound pn harge bertambah mahal sbb report aku tebal sgt...adeh~

Tp pape pn aku x salah kn sape2, mahupun PM Kamel. Cz aku betul2 nk dapat "A" tuk mende ni. X salah aku kuar kn sikit pengorbanan skang. Yang penting aku dapat A nnt.... Aminn~

Me and My Housemate Homemade Vide0s...(Pause my MP3 Player at the bottom page)

2010-10-27T00:32:00.004+08:00

This is me, elyas, and Naim... Abaikan 20secs pertame tuh, Naim tgh check guitar..

This is me and Elyas...Lagu Karma~

Aku Chenta Aku Ghendu~

Compilation of D0om~ Check Out my Video.. Home Made haha (Turn off my MP3 player at the bottom page if u wanna listen to these vide0)

2010-10-27T00:12:00.002+08:00

Hahaha...

Pantun Pade Si Pelumba Haram~

2010-10-26T23:23:00.003+08:00

Asal bunyi lumba haram je...Melayu.

Asal bunyi rempit je... Melayu

Kaum lain berlumba-lumba nak maju...

Si rempit ni berlumba-lumba siapa mati duLu.

Bila kaum lain tuntut hak sama rata kau marah...

Bila kaum lain kutuk bangsa tau marah...

Ko tengok kaum lain la kerja bersusah-susah...

Yang rempit ni dapat motor je tau nak perah...

Kaum lain bangun tengah malam sibuk mentelaah,

Korang start motor ntah meroyan mane2 ntah,

Agak2 la ape motif mak bapak korang anta pegi sekolah?

Ingat diorang anta sbb nak tengok korang langgar pokok getah??

Bile orang tegur tau marah..

Bile polis nk tangkap ko redah...

Abis Melayu skang nak jadi ape dah?

Nk ramai kn umat kat dewan bedah...??

Bawak motor elok2 kan orang x marah,

Ni ko bantai laju bersepah2,

Mane tak asek kena sumpah,

Tu yang tau2 eksiden bdn terbelah2.....

Ingat mak bapak ingat Tuhan,

Bersyukur la atas ape yg da diberikan,

Jgn di ikut kan sangat perasaan,

Kalau x same la korang ngan setan~

Ape yg sedap sgt lumba haram tu?

Jgn nk gah sgt kalau takat menang camtu,

Buat2 Tuhan tarik nyawe ko tyme tu.

Tak ke mak bapak korang yang menangis bertalu2?

Berkawan memang la beribu,

Tp jg la di ikut kn perangai yang bodoh tu,

Buatnye terperosok bwh lori bawak lembu,

Hah kt kubur tu tunjukla kat aku mane kawan2 ko tu...

Mase depan negare kt tangan korang lah,

Tak perasan ke tanah kite makin kurang dah?

Ape nk jadi kalau sume jadi sampah?

Akhirnye nnt di bumi melayu kite yg mintak sedekah.

Orang kasi nasehat ko melenting.

Dah lupe ke kepale ko tuh bukan bola jaring,

Buatnye langgar lori kn da berguling2,

Pecah pale ko ingt ade org lain runsing?

Pantun aku bagi ni iklhlas,

Bukan nk bg korang panas,

Kalau korang terase pedas,

Lain kali beli la serbuk kari selain alagapas~

Yg benar;

Lt Jeneral Azhar

(~.^) huh??? I'm 26???

2010-08-08T02:54:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha!! I cant believe this is how it feels 2 be 26... totally the same but i must admit that i had changed few things n started 2 think like an aduLt, i mean m0re like 0ne what adults do n how they use their brains properly~.

Yeah, i did missed my n0t s0 gud 0ld tymes, but dats wut makes me here n0w... da past did helped a LOT!!

To all my frens, enemies, n every0ne dat was hurt cz 0f me...am so s0rry 4 everythngs dat i've d0ne.. i'm stiLL 2 y0ung 2 think c0rrectlY n at da same tyme i was 2 ign0rance ab0ut keeping my gud attitude..

Perhaps u guys can 4gve me. I've n0thing 2 ask...except 4 4giveness. Please accept my appologies n lets pray dat we all will have a better life in future~

Regards;
AzharAdam, MR.E, Mecker, JS, Jaa, Khairil, Azhar, A'a

ps; please add me in your FB, (AzharAdam)

Anniversary Day~

2010-07-17T14:25:00.003+08:00

This was the day that we spend our days together. We went to Manhattan fish market, and the food was nice!! I really enjoyed the food and mostly the day when I'm with her.

But before that, we went to movies and watched the A-team. Awesome movie!

Should i??

2010-07-16T18:10:00.003+08:00

Lately, or should i say finally?? Im thinking of getting my life back.... but am not so sure i can b define as "my life" cz i totally 4got hw 2 b myself!! S0metimes i hate 2 b like diz. i hate 2 please every0ne but in the end da 0ne wh0 gt hurt is ME... i hate dat i was d only 0ne to be blame. No 0ne else wants 2 admit their faults. N ive been s0 stupid 2 take da blame. Infact i t0ok da blame cz i really wanna take a gud care 0f other ppl hearts. i tried 2 ave a gud rltn n connections, N this is wat i gt back??? S0 f*****g hurts!!!

I tried 2 b nice...but its jz n0t g0od enuff... i noe there will b a time that i might b wr0ng, but theres no chance that i'd b wr0ng all the time!! n U cant b right all da time!!! u dun hv 2 scientifically pr0ve it, cz u alredy knw it!!

being me is jz like living life with...completely full of s**t!!

Oh wait, b4 i end this post, i'd l0ve 2 share smtg with u guys. Its smtg else, not really related with the topic, but i insist 2 share it. Its called 'integrity'. If u have ur 0wn gf/bf, treat em well and b sincere. Dun 'pasang2', 'cawangan2'....n NEVER EVER kacau awek@balak org lain!! Plz have respect 2 their relationshp!! If not, u r da guy/gurl dat i hate the m0st.....

Chiow~

Truly sincere,

MR.E

Office oh Opis~

2010-07-16T15:29:00.003+08:00

Waaa....arini aku bosan. Byk keje tp xtau mane satu nk start dulu. Ade awek asek nk carik gado...(tp syg gak). Bile la aku nk abis blaja ni....da lame sgt rs prektikel ni. Xsaba nk ade duit sniri. asek mintak mak bapak je. Naik tebal da muke aku ni.

Smlm da la baru pas gado2 ngn awek aku. Lagi tension. Sume mende wat xkene. Even my opis mate pn pasan. Bos pn pasan. adeh~Asek nk kna mengalah je la. Hmm....

Chiow~

Quotes for t0day~

2010-03-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis, but rather the feeling of being unwanted.
Mother Teresa

Never put off till tomorrow what you can do today.
Thomas Jefferson

I think with the Romans, that the general of today should be a soldier tomorrow if necessary.
Thomas Jefferson

Today, more than ever before, life must be characterized by a sense of Universal responsibility, not only nation to nation and human to human, but also human to other forms of life.
Dalai Lama

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.
Albert Einstein

Memory is deceptive because it is colored by today's events.
Albert Einstein

How am I going to live today in order to create the tomorrow I'm committed to?
Tony Robbins

You see, it's never the environment; it's never the events of our lives, but the meaning we attach to the events - how we interpret them - that shapes who we are today and who we'll become tomorrow.
Tony Robbins

Success comes from taking the initiative and following up... persisting... eloquently expressing the depth of your love. What simple action could you take today to produce a new momentum toward success in your life?
Tony Robbins

It took a lot of blood, sweat and tears to get to where we are today, but we have just begun. Today we begin in earnest the work of making sure that the world we leave our children is just a little bit better than the one we inhabit today.
Barack Obama

Today we are engaged in a deadly global struggle for those who would intimidate, torture, and murder people for exercising the most basic freedoms. If we are to win this struggle and spread those freedoms, we must keep our own moral compass pointed in a true direction.
Barack Obama

The thing about hip-hop today is it's smart, it's insightful. The way they can communicate a complex message in a very short space is remarkable.
Barack Obama

You cannot escape the responsibility of tomorrow by evading it today.
Abraham Lincoln

I do not think much of a man who is not wiser today than he was yesterday.
Abraham Lincoln

Today we did what we had to do. They counted on America to be passive. They counted wrong.
Ronald Reagan

Above all, we must realize that no arsenal, or no weapon in the arsenals of the world, is so formidable as the will and moral courage of free men and women. It is a weapon our adversaries in today's world do not have.
Ronald Reagan

We're in greater danger today than we were the day after Pearl Harbor. Our military is absolutely incapable of defending this country.
Ronald Reagan

Today, if you invent a better mousetrap, the government comes along with a better mouse.
Ronald Reagan

The investor of today does not profit from yesterday's growth.
Warren Buffett

ADNAN SEMPIT??

2010-03-29T18:45:00.002+08:00

The movie is superb. I spend my Friday hours with my frens. Oh yeah T.T I spend more than I expected. This movie made me laughed out loud. So please, abg abg akak akak, do watch this movie. Its aint stupid at all. In the same time, I have decided to quit or to bail out from any label starting 15.01.2010. Im quite upset with my own decision, but I am way too visible in that label. Im better off on my own. Friends thank you for the advise, Im not looking forward for any activities now. Im focusing my whole effort to my studies. 6th semester is killing me! Reports to be done. Dozens of presentation and lots of assignments.

Dear Allah please give me a healthy body & a developing brain so I can think out of the box. I need idea. HOORAY but still Im excited, just cant wait to start a business! baby lets shake shake.

Weird....

2010-03-29T18:42:00.003+08:00

Life is weird huh? Someone who is a stranger get connected to you within few months and people we have barely know like 3 or 4 years disappearing and you treat them like a stranger when you bumped into her/him. I have friends that I knew from the cyber world, amazingly she becomes one of my 'best friend forever' we share most of the thing and yes we dont really have the opportunity to meet within these years...

I dun noe wat happen to me. But i feel more 'comfort' when am with her....~

Subjektif itu aku...

2010-03-29T18:36:00.003+08:00

I have been drifted away about the understanding of racism. Quite surprisingly the group that has been boycott from others has quite large numbers in it. Fahaman aku masih kabur, aku ia kan sahaja bila ditanya. Kenapa? Byk lagi benda lain aku nk buat. Aku tengok ramai betul remaja yang sgt gah letak flyer, gambar, etc utk di boycott. Ada pula yg letak tapi tanpa sedar dia memboikot band kwn nya sendiri. Kenapa dia letak? Sebab semua org letak. Selepas diberitahu barulah terhegeh hegeh untuk tidak memboikot. Aku nampak disini, fahaman ini menular secara diam dan senyap. Kalau org tk fhm pun org akan sokong habis habisan, Aku tahu ramai yg di luar sana memahami fahaman yg didukung mereka, tapi sekarang aku menekankan budak budak yg kabur seperti aku.

Aku ada berkwn dgn group A dgn group B. Group B buat gig, group boikot. Aku tanya knp group A nk boikot, mereka jwb group B mengamalkan perkauman. Aku diam, aku sembang dgn group B, group B tak pernah boikot gig sesiapa pun. Ok let see, in the end all of us can see the outcome, Group A they are boycotting others like hell showing they are the one who practicing racism. Tapi aku rasa benda ini memang amalan rakyat Malaysia. Lack or respect. Ayat ayat seperti ini mesti digunakan

“Kau ckp mcm keeling llaaaaa babiiiii” : ayat ini normal sgt.

“Busuk siallll mcm cinaaaaa tk mandi pagiii” : ayat yg agak suam suam kuku.

“Nama pun melayu dah laa bodoh lembab plak!” : ok ayat ini normal juga

The sentences are part from our daily routine, we can hear it everywhere. Aku rasa aku kenal ramai group A yg kata kata mcm tu dlm maki hamun mereka. So. Kita semua racist. Ok Ok. Bukan conclusion nya, nobody perfect, sebab aku pun tak tahu aku ini racist ke tidak! Racist ke?

BOSAN!!

2010-03-29T18:33:00.003+08:00

Aku rasa aku dah bosan nak berbahasa asing, boleh tak berbahasa ibunda sendiri? Hahh. Ralat betul sem ni. Sgt sgt ralat. I been pressuring myself with all the previous tasks. Padahal bukan lah beban mana. Aku rasa yg sepatutnya dpt all the credits are my team mates. They are the best benda tu aku tk boleh deny sampai aku mati. Pelajar yang paling tak cemerlang ialah aku. Im not capable, seriously sampai satu tahap aku rasa tertekan sangat.

Hal cinta tk payah ungkap lah, aku pun dah bosan. Aku sendiri tk fhm apa aku nak. Sampai singa garang kesayangan aku pun boleh gelak je bila aku bercerita. Mcm lost in moment aku, lost searching for the truth and eternity love. Cewah ! I dont really bother about love, love is only a feeling but now I need substance not feeling. I need a figureeee. Aku dah ada figure, aku sayang figure itu, aku makin jatuh cinta dgn figure tu, tapi kalau benda tk stabil.... Aku pun tk tahu what would happened in the future. Okay lah aku bukan nak in the term of figure numbers ke apa ke. Aku pun dah bosan berkaitan dgn number hari hari. Study case pun tk habis buat lagi. Next week dah kena present :-( Minggu ni berusaha nk siapkan semua.Oh rancangan postpone, aku tk jadi pergi ke Shah Alam by next week lega sikit kepala otak.

2010-03-29T18:12:00.003+08:00

Things about me:

1. I'm a sm0ker

Yup..am a sm0ker...but currently i've been trying 2 quit.. yah, i noe..s0 lame. but, pls wish me gud luck~

2. I'm going to reach 26 this August

Yup...for certain pe0ple who doesnt noe, n dun really care 2 noe...am 26...damn~

3. I dont play bowling

Seriously...last tyme i played, i was the 5th tymes....in my entire life.

4. I l0ve guitars

Yess...l0ve it s0 much!! Hahaha

5. Cold outside, warm inside...

Seriously i dunno y sometymes ppl tot me as a 'fierce' pers0n...but actually i l0ve make frens.

Almost there..........

2010-03-06T22:46:00.003+08:00

haa...ni aku nk citer sket psl anak buah aku yg bername Nisa' ni. aku tau dh penuh dlm blog aku psl dier je. Tp pedulik hape aku kn. Huhuhu...bese r br s0rg beb. Syg tu lebey la...heheh

Anak buah aku nie umur dier dh dekat 2 tahun dh.. Sgt pandai bercakap. If aku duk ngadap laptop ke pc ker confirm dier terkedek-kedek dtg duk kt ribe aku. Pastu mintak lagu Dibo. Haa...korg xtau Dibo tu hape kn?? Google la!! Huhuhu... Senang citer Dibo tu ialah Nage yg mempunyai zip kat perut. Aku pn xphm npe tp tu la citer faveret anak buah aku nie... huhu

Talkin' bout fav cart0ons, fav carto0n character Nisa' is Minnie Mouse!! Huhu...Yes, if dier duduk depan laptop ngn aku mmg dier akn mintak sume2 kartun tu...so aku bukak kn la. Effect nyer terhadap aku ialah; aku dh tau n almost hapal sume lagu katun2 nie...huh! so korg jgn pelik la if 0ne day k0rg terdengar aku nyanyi lagu kartun ni....

Pic yg aku nk tunjuk sebla ni saje jek... nk tunjuk kt korg anak buah aku dh pandai melaram..hakahakhak....~ Dgn pampers lg pn ley lg nk melaram...pening aku~

Pape pn, anak buah aku mmg cute~ Korg jgn jeles haahahahahah!!!!

Chiow~

~Valentine's Day~

2010-03-06T22:31:00.004+08:00

V'Day........

Betul ke berd0sa untuk kite celebrate V'Day nie?? Bagi aku, mende nie agak berd0sa...(mmg berd0sa la) sbb mende ni asal usulnyer pn org Kristian yg reka. So kpd org Islam cam aku ni xsesuai la tuk kite celebratesbb nmpk sgt jahil kite pade agame. Jadi bg pendapat aku, xelok untuk kite celebrate V'day ni.

Bagi aku, aku ader gak celebrate tyme 14th Feb nie... but bkn sbb nk celebrate V'Day. Aku dah meng'convert'kn pemahaman V'Day nie jd hari bese je. Cume aku jd kn ari yg lebey special tu je.

So pd kengkwn dan rakan taulan sume, lupe kn la 14th Feb as V'day. Just jd kn ari tu special je. Paling penting kiter ingat hari kiamat. Sbb tu mmg konfem2 akan dtg pd kiter.

Yg Ikhlas tp benar, Jaa

Mati Hidup Kembali.......~

2010-01-31T02:25:00.005+08:00

Dulu aku jahat,
Dulu aku nakal.
Kini aku kembali ingat,
Kini aku tau apa maksud akal.

Dulu aku alpa,
Dulu aku leka.
Kini aku sedar,
Kini aku peka.

Dulu aku lah raja,
Dulu aku lah ketua.
Kini aku sedar aku lah hamba,
Kini aku sedar aku tiada apa2.

Dulu aku megah,
Dulu aku gagah.
Kini aku pasrah,
Kini aku lemah.

Dulu hidupku penuh maksiat,
Dulu hidupku penuh laknat.
Kini hanya air mata dapat ku kesat,
Kini pada-Nya aku ingin bertaubat.

Dulu aku angkuh,
Dulu aku rapuh.
Kini aku tempuh,
Kini aku bertambah teguh.

Dulu.....aku menyimpang jauh,
Dulu aku hanyut.
Kini aku cuba mengayuh,
Kini aku cuba berpaut.

Dulu aku masih muda,
Dulu aku masih bergaya.
Kini aku sudah tua,
Kini aku bukan siapa2.

Dulu adalah sejarah,
Dulu nafsu adalah panduan.
Kini corak sudah berubah,
Kini Al-Quran sebagai panduan.

'masih belum terlambat.......'

by; MR.E

Video Percubaan...

2010-01-31T02:17:00.002+08:00

Haa...untuk memastikan aku mendapat 'A' dlm subject Internet marketing ni, aku telah meng'upload' kn vide0 kt dlm blog aku nie.. hahahahahah

Chi0w!

Baaaad day............~

2010-01-29T12:30:00.002+08:00

Ini hari aku xle tdo cz bdn rs sengal2... guling2 punye guling pn xpat tdo gak.
badan rs pns semacam jek.. adeh... so aku minum r ubat panadol.

sok pagi nyer aku tgk jam dah kul 9am..... hah????cls dow!!! PM kamil lak tu!! adeh..................
malang tul la naseb aku arini........

yg sakit,

jaa

CHiow~

Meng'Hantu'i hidup ku..........

2010-01-29T03:45:00.003+08:00

Bile jek aku bukak facebuk aku, aku tgk kt pic profile.... uh uh aku ternmpk satu pic ni.....
aku terbahak2 tgk pic nie.... nie la kenangan namenye~

Dulu waktu aku Form5 kt skola Teknik Bkt Piatu Melake.....
Kitorang berpakat nk kna kn budak2 juni0r yg br daftar.... Kitorang pening pe la nk wat kt di0rg ni... nk bg diorg ingt kitorg sampai biler2. saje je nk kasi diorg pengalaman hahahahah!!

Suddenly membe aku ader satu idea bernas....dier nk jd hantu... hahaha itu suda baik!!
so petang tu kitorang setting sume mende alat2 tuk jd hantu. Tunggu la korg mlm kang!!

Malam pn menjelma....kitorg setup brg2 n start makeup. uh uh dh jd hantu dh!! penat2 mak bapak anta skola suh jd org bergune, tpp jd hantu plak... hahah...

Jam tepat lebey kuang dlm 1 setengah pagi.....kitorang start tutup lampu koridor kt asrama....~
dengan berbekal kn minyak atar yg atuk kwn aku bg mase dier balik dr mekah, kitorang pakai masing2 kasi bau wangi~

Kitorng mulekn ngn bilik aku....Juni0r aku name dier 'SingKong' (aku yg bagi hahaha) mmg ader mslh tdo berdengkur dan menyusah kn org. Kitorg slow2 approach.......

"Maarobukaa...~" membe aku cube takut2kn ngn nada garau.....
Senyap~ xde reply.....aih tdo mati syial budak ni!! xle jd!! one more tyme!!
"Maarobbu...."
"aku xkacao ko, ko jgn kaco aku....~" tetibe nada kecil bersuare......
uh uh rupenyer juni0r aku nie sedar rupenyer....dier wat2 tdo jek... takut rupenye!! hahahah!!
Yess mission accomplished!! kitorg berjaye menakut kn sorg mangse!! hahaha kami berjaye jd hantu!!

kitorg sangat hepi...masing2 ketawe berdekah2 cm sok xle nk ketawe lg dh. so, pastu kitorg proceed to the next victim! huhu.. kali ni budak bilik sebla plak..............

kitorang kali ni lebey advance...siap kaler2 merah kt mulut konon cm darah mengalir la... hikhik.
helo next victim., here we come!!!

Kitorng masuk slow2....keliling katil budak sekor ni. Dier ni budak Kelantan. Tp xreti ckp kelantan...so dier jd lamngse kitorg kali ni....

Kitorang mulekn ngn ayat bese..."Maarobbuka.....~"
xde respon..... aih..mls tul nk ckp berkali2... so skali lg kitorg ckp.... same gak dier xbgn gak.
kali ni aku dh mls nk kacau tp membe aku insist nk wat gak....
"Labaikallah humma labaik...."
"Laa takrabu zina..."
Tetibe..... "buk!!"
bunyi pe tu??? aku dh pelik....cm bunyi kuat jek....
"adeh...sakit!!" bunyi suare org mengerang sakit... aku pn cepat2 bukak lampu takut mende buruk jd...

Bile aku bukak lampu terus aku pg kat katil td..... skali bile aku tgk rupenye kwn aku tgh pegang muke...sambil mengerang sakit.

Rupenye dier kna tumbuk daa..... pastu kitrg masing2 ketawe berdekah2. Juni0r tu trus mintak maap. dier kate dier takot sangat sampai tertumbuk. hahahahah

So tu la last pengembaraan kitrg nk takot2 kn juni0r...menyesal da.......

Tula pengalaman manis aku kt sane.... uh uh

sekian..

Chiow~

Penemuan Harta 'Karun'??

2010-01-29T03:35:00.003+08:00

Ni mase aku ngn bdk2 uma dh mls tgk uma bersepah...make kitorg jadikn satu hari tu hari mengemas seMalaysia....

byk gak la yg kitorg kemas kn...cm2 bende ade. Letey giler kemas...umah dh cm boley taruk sign kt pintu pagar tu "Zoo Segamat"..... punye la lame kemas sampai lebey kuang dlm 3 jam gak r.. huhu byk gile nk d kemas kn.

Waktu kitorg tgh kemas2 tu, suddenly aku terjumpe something yg agak pelik...... uik pe tu?? aku amek slow2...bile aku angkat rupenye ia sebuah buku.....~

aku sapu2 debu kt buku tu...pastu aku tgk pe dier tulis kt muke depan. Halamak!!! uh uh... cmne buku cmni ley bersepah nie...

maka dengan jase baik dan niat murni aku nk tlg kwn2, make aku hadiah kn buku tersebut pada house mate aku...

"nafiz, nah....mule kan la dgn hidup baru....." aku ckp pada kwn aku.

dier pn ngn selambe amek n kitorg siap amek gamba lg.....

semoga ko manfaat kn la buku "Panduan Sembahyang" tu ye Nafiz............. ~

(aku pn same je...hahaha!!!)

Chiow~

HARAM????

2010-01-29T03:20:00.002+08:00

aku tengah lepak2 kt mapley...cm bese la...korg tau kn. mmg ader je muke aku lepak kt ctu. hari2 bazir mase n duit kt ctu jek. bkn dpt aper pn... hahaha saje je nk mkn sbb kdg2 tu mmg lapa...

nk d jadikn citer aku TER tengok plak biter ni... "Pahang keluar fatwa; Rokok adalah HARAM!!!"
uh uh?? sungguh ker??? ni pe men2 april fo0l ni hoi?? br bulan januari ni!!!

aku sungguh xpuas hati sampai aku balik uma sewa nie terus surf tenet.... uik?! betulla!!! alamak cmno nie?? haram ko?? eden xredi lagi nk bonti nie!!! hadoiyai!! mental wa cmni....

sok pagi nyer mak aku call..." Hah, dh tgk biter lom?? Ker ko purak2 xnk tgk??" aku reply selambe.."Tgk....sian org kt Haiti tu kn?? Gempa bumi...uh uh..."
"Bukan tu la!!" mak aku jwb dengan nada kalau aku ader kt ctu cm kna pelangkung.
"Owh ni mesti nk ckp pasal cuace kt cni eh?? Bile plak mak tgk cuace ni?"aku jwb...
" Rokok tu haram la!!" mak aku trus potong aku wat lawak....heh sebenarnye mmg aku dh tau niat mak aku call tu. saje jek nk usik2 uhuh... aku pn ckp " Tula skg ni kt Phang xle isap rokok la ye mak...?? naseb bek sy ader kt Johor."

"Berenti la syg oi...." mak aku jwb ngn nada mls nk lyn aku wat lawak. "heh ye la mak...sy cube k..."aku jwb..................

hadoiyai......camne ni...~

Chiow~

Pesan Seorang Rakan.......

2010-01-29T02:33:00.003+08:00

Lepas satu hari kitorg lepak2 mlm tu aku, angah, zul, n beberape yg len lepak r kt mapley Al-Azwath. aku order teh o ais.. kitorg lepak n borak byk mende la.. pastu tetibe hujan renyai....

Dlm hujan renyai tu kitorang xubah tmpt tp stay je...naseb bek ujan tu kejap jek. so kitorang sambung r lepak ctu. Then aku pn citer pasal nk berjaye dlm hidup... pastu tetibe bunyi suare kwn aku, angah batuk kecil... di saat ini la sumenye bermula sebuah kesah yg memilukn.......

" aku skola x pandai. sampai SPm aku dh start keje. cr duit sniri, tp bukn tuk diri sniri....tuk family skali... Lepas SPM aku pegi K.L tuk cr keje. aku tdo kt terminal Pudu sbb bas sampai KL mlm... aku bgtau family aku aku ader interview kt KL tp sebenarnye xde. aku sniri nk cr keje kt sane. Bile bapak aku hulur RM50 n suh aku jimat2, aku cepat2 ckp xperlu.... aku xnk ssh kn dier. tp dier bg gak... aku terime je.

bile aku bangun pagi sok nye, aku terus cuci muke je. aku terus cr keje....aku xlengah kn mase lgsg. aku pk nk cepat sbb aku xde sape yg aku knl kat KL ni. yg plg best aku xde tmpt tggl lgsg. aku mmg tawakal je..... aku jln kaki dr pudu ke tmpt2 yg berhampiran.. cr keje sane sini..

satu pagi tu aku xjmp satu pn keje kosong...aku redha je. aku tau Tuhan akn tolong aku... so, petang tu lepas zohor aku terus sambung carik keje... aku pg kt satu hotel nie... aku doa sgt2 supaye aku dpt keje arini gak!! so aku terus masuk n jmp brader kt hotel tu n tny ader x nk pakai org.. alhamdulillah, dier kate mmg tgh nk pakai cleaner. aku hepi sgt2!!

mase brader tu bwk aku jmp boss dier, aku doa sgt kt TUhan supaye berikn kerja ni kt aku... then aku masuk dlm opis boss.........

Pendek kate boss tu terime je aku.. aku cm nk lompat je tp control la.. bkn keje dokter pn kn...cleaner je. pastu boss aku suh dtg sok tuk start keje....aku menggelabah. aku dh terpk cmne nk stay kt KL ni?? aku xde duit..... so aku doa lg kt Tuhan~

Tetibe brader yg bwk jmp boss td dtg kt aku n tny aku, 'kau stay mane? jauh x nk pegi keje?'
aku tersengih n jwb..' xde bang..saye xde tempat nk stay lgsg...' brader tu terkejut. Sekali lagi Tuhan tu nk tunjuk kuase, brader tu ckp...' Kau stay la umah abg dulu...bini abg xde. Dier kt uma mertua..." aku pn setuju jek....

Esok nyer, aku start pegi keje......

Lebey kuang dlm seminggu, brader tu ader satu berite buruk.. Anak dier kene masuk wad. Aku pn terpakse phm2 sniri xkn la nk duk uma dier sedangkn dier kna jge anak dier kt wad aku nk stay kt uma dier plak.... so aritu aku jmp boss......

' BOss, sy xde tmpt tinggal....boley x sy nk tumpang tggl kt hotel ni? mane2 pn boley boss...'
Boss jwb... 'hmm kt mane ko nk tgl??' aku jwb ' mane2 boley boss'....
akhirnye aku dpt tmpt...

aku pegi kt 'uma' baru aku tu.....Ya Allah sedey nye aku.....bwh tangge hotel tu ader satu store room... itu la tmpt aku...aku pasrah. aku mule kn hari ngn tido kt uma baru aku tu... aku cube lelap tp xle......aku saba..

sok nye aku bangun awal n trus call bapak aku... ingt nk ckp aku xjd keje KL...aku xle nk trus cmni.... tp bile aku call aku dgr suare bapak aku batuk2... dier xsehat rupenye. tp bile call dier yg tny aku sehat ke x dulu. aku pn jwb aku sehat.....biler dgr suare dier cmtu terus aku sayu...n aku ckp aku dh dpt keje kt KL. bapak aku terus hepi dgr....

Setiap mlm aku akan nangis kt 'uma' tangge aku tu....bantal tu dh penuh ngn air mate dr air liur basi.. hari2 aku kenangkn naseb aku. aku dgr nasehat bapak aku, jimat... aku jimat betul!! sehari aku cume mkn skali.... bile agak2 xde duit aku cume beli pisang...tu la mknan aku selame seminggu.

cmtu la hidup aku selame setahun lebey kt KL....hari2 aku cume mampu berd0a.....
alhamdulillah, Tuhan tu mmg adil...akhirnye pade satu hari aku dpt offer keje len kt government sect0r. aku amek je......ni la pe yg ko nmpk kt aku skg.. korg xtau pe yg aku rase sblm nie...

Hidup ni mmg akan ader cabaran...mmg banyak sgt. Tp ingat la...kalau korg ingt Tuhan, TUhan pn akn ingt korg....."

Cmtu la lebey kuang citer member aku tuh.... dh la tgh embun2 pagi...sunyi plak tu. ktrg trus senyap... xde la nk ketawe terbahak2 cm b4 diz.. yela, masing2 ingt Tuhan bile ssh je. huhuhu....

Balik tu, aku b4 tdo aku terkenangkn citer membe aku td..... aku pk, ingt cm aku je yg kna cabaran truk. rupenyer ader lg truk eh..... so aku bangun la kjap. aku isap rokok kt depan uma sambil pk citer td. pastu tetibe azan subuh.......~

alamak dh subuh ke??? kelas PM Kamel sok nie!! hadoiyai!! aku trus nk baring2 jap kasi dapat energy sket2 tuk clas sok. Bile aku baring tu...aku terdengar cm ader bunyi org ckp... 'Tangge'.... hah?? tangge?? aku pelik r...pastu aku trus teringat kisah member aku tdo kt tangge td... aku bagn slow2....aku pegi toilet~

aku senyap2 amek sejadah pas amek wudhu'.....aku smyg subuh...~

Tu je....

Chiow~

Kakak....kakak

2010-01-29T02:21:00.003+08:00

Huhuhu...aku xtau nk ckp ape sbnrnye. tp lepas usha facebook td aku terjmp pic nie.. ni la kakak2 aku.. cute kn?? bese la, diorg r sll nasehat aku suh blaja. ikut ati aku cm nk keje je. tp diorg ckp blaja je dulu. abaikn pe org ckp.. make di sebabkn nasehat2 mereka, aku pn blaja la.... tp makin lame aku makin sonok plak blaja ni. heheh tu psl asek bertambah jek sem aku eh?? mengong tul. hahaha......

Kakak aku yg betul tu skg jd lecturer kt UIA plak. dier kate mls nk wt service lg. dulu dier doktor kat Hospital Melake, tp pastu dier apply jd lecturer. Haha....sukati dier la. Dier ngn abang ipar aku pn same je jd lecturer. bgs la... mayb sbb diorg kot aku ader sifat hormat lecturer. kalu x....heheh.

Kakak ipar aku tuh plak name dier Ruziana. sebaye ngn abg aku. dulu same blaja kt uitm s.alam... tp cmne dier jmp sesame aku xtaula... tah cmne ley terpikat kt abg aku tuh. abg aku tu dh la garang, kasar, kejam (huhuhuhuhu) tp kakak ipar aku tu giler penyaba, baik, sopan santun...tah cmne la dier ley ske kt abg aku pn xtau. cm pelik je. tula jodoh namenye eh...dier skg keje kt UPM serdang.. bhgn library.

Hah dh abis citer psl kakak aku ni...jom tido!! ngantuk la dow!!

Chiow~

4 FLAT!!bek dr hari2 yg lepas..

2010-01-29T02:12:00.003+08:00

"Umo dh lanjut, xreti base lagi... nk ikut kn perangai memain sampai bile2 pn xkn puas main2 tuh..." tu la pesan kwn aku secare direct kt batang hidung aku smlm... aku redha kn n tadah je.. yelah betul pe dier ckp tu.. aku pn start sedar sket demi sket. uh uh npe la aku ssh nk ubah sikap aku nie.. kdg2 tu fade up gak trus cmni..

berdasarkn pesan2 kwn2 n family serta lecturers, aku cube tuk perbaiki diri aku nie.... cube tuk jd lg baik dr hari2 yg lepas. hehe insyaallah aku cube la...

make disebabkn itu, aku isytihar kn hari ni hari berubah ke arah kebaikan!! aku pasang azam baru... nk 4 flat!! korg gelak r....biar r guling2 ke hape, janji yg penting aku tau matlamat aku nk jd ape. mmg lawak pn tp ni aku siyes ni!! uh uh!! pd kwn2 sume, mari kiter maju jaye!!

pe lg...dh abis la... chiow!!

Addition into my Family Group!!

2009-09-06T06:06:00.003+08:00

Ni pic waktu abang aku kawen kat klang.. Wife dier name nyer Ruziana. kitorang panggil Kak Rozi. dier sebaya ngan abg aku. actually diorang ni classmate kat UiTM Shah Alam dulu. punye lame diorang saba, akhirnye kawen gak. hikhikhik....

dari kiri, azhar(aku la tuh), ayah, kak rozi, anbia, anuar, mak, khairul bariah n her daughter Khairunnisa'imana, n abg Haikal (abg ipar aku merangkap suami kakak aku, n bapak kepada anak buah aku nisa')

its just a song

2009-09-06T06:04:00.002+08:00

Dont Wanna Try...

(oooo)...dont wanna try dont wanna try (try try)
(oooo)..dont wanna try no more
(ooo)..dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try

Verse 1
i cant believe u had the nerve to say the things u said
they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
i cant believe it ..4 years go down the drain
oh how i wish things would of happened so differently
i tryd to save it so many times but you still couldnt see
u kept insistin and resistin that u would not fall again
and now u tryin to tell me that ur sorry
and ur tryin to come back home
ur tellin me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i

-Chorus
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin on when all we do is hurt our love

Verse 2
u and i had many conversations on the telephone
talks about one day we having a place of our own
wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
but all of that just seems so far away from me
had to wake up face reality
it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through
and now u tryin to tell me that ur sorry
and u tryin to come back home
u tellin me that u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i

-Chorus
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin on when all we do is hurt our love

[..fading into beat]
(dont wanna try dont wanna try)
(dont wanna try no more)
(dont wanna try dont wanna try..oo)

(dont wanna try dont wanna try)
(dont wanna try no more)
(dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more ooo)

Music and Soul!! Quotes for today..

2009-09-03T11:10:00.004+08:00

Words make you think a thought. Music makes you feel a feeling. A song makes you feel a thought.”
E.Y. Harburg

“Music is more logical than the human mind can comprehend: yet we can recognize it and surrender to it. We cannot comprehend music but music can comprehend us.”
Peter Hiett

"It’s such an extraordinary thing, music. It is how we speak to God finally – or how we don’t. Even if we’re ignoring God. It’s the language of the spirit. If you believe that we contain within our skin and bones a spirit that might last longer than your time breathing in and out – if there is a spirit, music is the thing that wakes it up. And it certainly woke up mine. And it seems to be how we communicate on another level."
Bono

“Music isn't just learning notes and playing them. You learn notes to play to the music of your soul.”
Katie Greenwood

“Music is one of the ways we can achieve a kind of shorthand to understand each other.”
Yo Yo Ma

“Music is the shorthand of emotion”
Leo Tolstoy

“Music is a fair and glorious gift from God. I am strongly persuaded that after theology there is no art than can be placed on a level with music; for besides theology, music is the only art capable of affording peace and joy of the heart.”
Martin Luther

“After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music”
Aldous Huxley

“Music is the vernacular of the human soul”
Geoffrey Latham

“Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness”
Maya Angelou

“We need music to restore the human spirit”
Leonard Slatkin
Director of the National Symphony

"Music is so important. It changes thinking, it influences everybody, whether they know it or not. Music knows no boundary lines."
Irving Berlin

"Music is a discipline, and a mistress of order and good manners, she makes the people milder and gentler, more moral and more reasonable."
Martin Luther

“I think music in itself is healing. It’s an explosive expression of humanity. It’s something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we’re from, everybody loves music.”
Billy Joel

“Music has the power to move a person between different realities: from a broken body into a soaring spirit, from a broken heart into the connection of shared love, from death into the memory and movement of life. Music has the power to touch the heart of a child with God."
Dr. Deforia Lane
Music Therapist

“Without music, life itself would be an error. The Germans imagine even God singing songs.”
Friedrich Nietzsche

“Music is an outburst of the soul”
Frederick Deluis

“Music is God’s best gift to man; the only art of heaven given to earth, the only art of earth we take to heaven”
Walter Savage Lander

“It is only that which cannot be expressed otherwise that is worth expressing in music”
Annonymous

“Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, a charm to sadness, gaiety and life to everything; It is the essence of order and lends to all that is good, just, and beautiful.”
Plato

“Responsiveness to music is an essential part of our neural nature”
Dr. Oliver Sacks, Neurologist NYC

“Music, the greatest good that mortals know, and all of heaven we have below”
John Addison

“The only universal tongue”
Samuel Rogers

"My heart, which is so full to overflowing, has often been solaced and refreshed by music when sick and weary."
Martin Luther

“All art constantly aspires toward the condition of music”
Ibid. The School of Giorgione

“Music has charms to soothe a savage breast,To soften rocks, or bend a knotted oak”
William Congreve, The Mourning Bride (1697)

“Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life”
Berthold Auerbach

“We are a spectacular manifestation of life. We have language…we have affection. We have genes for usefulness and usefulness is about as close to a ‘common goal’ of nature as I can guess at. And finally, and perhaps best of all, we have music.”
The Medusa and The Snail (1979)

“Who hears music feels his solitude peopled at once”
Robert Browning

“Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent”
Victor Hugo

“I have my own particular sorrows, loves, delights; and you have yours. But sorrow, gladness, yearning, hope, love, belong to all of us, in all times and in all places. Music is the only means whereby we feel these emotions in their universality.”
H. A. Overstreet

“Without music, life is a journey through a desert”
Pat Conroy

“Music is well said to be the speech of angels; in fact, nothing among utterances allowed to man is felt to be so divine. It brings us near the infinite.”
Thomas Carlyle

“Just as certain selections of music will nourish your physical body and your emotional layer, so other musical works will bring greater health to your mind”
Hal A. Lingerman

“Give me the making of the songs of a nation, and I care not who writes its laws.”
Andrew Fletcher

Are you a dreamer??

2009-09-03T11:02:00.002+08:00

Nothing happens unless first a dream.
Dream no small dreams for they have no power to move the hearts of men.
Because thou must not dream, thou need not despair.
A leader has the vision and conviction that a dream can be achieved. He inspires the power and energy to get it done.
Our dreams drench us in senses, and senses steps us again in dreams.
All men who have achieved great things have been dreamers.
Don’t be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so.
No person has the right to rain on your dreams.
All dreams can come true…..if we have the courage to pursue them.
I’m realising my dream of owning a top football club. Some will doubt my motives, others will think I’m crazy.
A man’s dreams are an index to his greatness.
The work goes on, the cause endures, the hope still lives and the dreams shall never die.
When you cease to dream, you cease to live.
The best reason for having dreams is that in dreams no reasons are necessary.
No lower can a man descend than to interpret his dreams into gold and silver.
One of the characteristics of the dream is that nothing surprises us in it. With no regret, we agree to live in it with strangers, completely cut off from our habits and friends.
If you can dream it, you can do it.
In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.
A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.
Dreams are pure thought, an opportunity to discover yourself.
To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.
Don’t let go of your dreams. If you have determination and belief in your dreams, you will succeed in spite of your desire to let go.
You see things; and you say, Why ? But I dream things that never were; and I say, Why not ?
The fulfillment of your dreams lies within you and you alone.
It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today and the reality of tomorrow.
Don’t let anyone steal your DREAMS
Dreams are necessary to life.
Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today.
Be careful what you wear to bed at night, you never know who you’ll meet in your dreams.
A dream is an answer to a question we haven’t yet learned how to ask.
The only thing that will stop you from fulfilling your dreams is you.
Thoughts are but dreams till their effects be tried.
Self-esteem must be earned! When you dare to dream, dare to follow that dream, dare to suffer through the pain, sacrifice, self-doubts, and friction from the world, you will genuinely impress yourself.
When your dreams tire, they go underground and out of kindness that’s where they stay.
Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

p/s: so, its not bad if u r a dreamer....:D

WAAARRRGGHH!!!!

2009-09-02T08:39:00.004+08:00

wah...aku xleh tdo!!!! asek teringat kat awex aku!!! npe jd cmni??
pernah skali aku try lupekn dier, but, mmg xdpt... shes all around me!!!!
Syg plz stop doing thing yg sy x suke!!! u promised!!! remember???!!

Wake up in the morning!!

2009-09-02T08:12:00.003+08:00

its a wonderful morning that i can remember... coz i had a wonderful dreams ever in my whole life!!
actually i jz had a fight with my gurl last nite.. but we manage to survive.. yeah, lame... but, i looked over her call list, it seems like she had a conversation thru sms with SK (again...) couple of times...
i dont know what were they talked about last nyte, but am pretty sure its nothing related with their studies.

i dont know how to say that i dont like her to do that again, coz i think she would understand how i feel.. i tried so many times to avoid azura calls, n i managed to free myself from it. how, how will she feels if i do the same way too?? its pretty bias i would say so..

but, luckily.... i got over it. i tried 2 make it simple. 'what goes around, will comes around'..... maybe she'll know it hurt so bad soon..

p/s: if u reading this, just ignore it....

Getting Engaged....

2009-09-02T03:10:00.004+08:00

ni la gamba waktu kitorang tunang aritu.. dlm 5 ekor unta n 10 ekor ayam serama kitorang kenduri...

hahaha xdela, ni pic awex aku pg tunang kwn dier. saje taruk pic ni... sja nk kasi tau korg aku syg awex aku!! huhuhu

Nisa' found her Toy!!

2009-08-31T07:05:00.000+08:00

So you know, we entered diz mall in malacca 2day, tried to find our 'baju raya'.. and apparently nisa' found her 'toy raya' instead! she jz grabbed dat 'mouse' thingy and hold em!! seriously my bro in law must have tried hard 2 make her let it go, even jz 2 put it at the counter 2 pay for it...sigh..

such a cute gurl isnt she?? perhaps i will get one of this cute creatures one day..... started 2 count my days now...

p/s; dont really think shes ready yet.. :C

So you know...

2009-08-31T06:56:00.000+08:00

Do you know that feeling when you’re suddenly dragged into your own world, pretty much letting go of the chaos of everyday life? (which I’m doing at this particular moment by ignoring the oh-so-annoying whines of my lil brother on who’s turn to sleep at which side of the bed on what day of the week, sigh)

Letting yourself hauled into deep thought of nothingness and by this I mean not narrowing your mind into thinking of a particular something..You know, allowing your thoughts to, hmm, meander?

Every so often when I do this, I’ll start noticing things..Things that I deem not so worthy of my immediate attention, but are important and meaningful to me nonetheless. It’ll always start with petty stuffs like..

Why my post 4 blog didnt reached 100 yet?? ? (pretty slow progress if you ask me)

Why is my toothbrush always changing places from where I last put it? (hmm, I’m thinking this has something to do with my brother)

To bigger, significant ongoings in my life..

Is it one week left until my exam start? (O God, 1 week!)

Why do I still ‘tetido’ when I drive? Seriously dude, that, can cause major ‘accidente’=(

To deep and spiritual musings..

How can I be really khusyu’ in solah?

How many minutes of the hour on that day in that week do I spent to read the Quran? For all I know, that might just not be enough.

Come to think of it, how many times have I ever really stop to ponder? Living in today’s fast-paced world where everything pretty much goes with the glimpse of an eye, it’s the simplest I can do to at least slow things up. Take a break once in a while, but instead of having kitkat^^, isn’t it better for us to ‘start noticing things’?

Things that memories are made of..
Things that strengthen the ties and narrows the gap..
Things that help you become a better citizen of the world and a better Muslim of the ummah..

So you see, it’s good to loosen up sometimes and think things through..

MERDEKA!!!

2009-08-31T06:46:00.000+08:00

it was da BEST merdeka celebration 4 me diz year.....coz i simply CELEBRATE it on my bed!! haha it was such a tiring day. i just got back from malacca n reached home like 0930pm. i couldnt even get 2 say 'merdeka' to my gurl yet...heh.

HobbY baru??

2009-08-30T07:06:00.000+08:00

aku pun x tau dari mane dtgnyer hoby baru aku nie.. yg aku tau sejak aku tgk bdk2 cls aku asek amek gamba je, aku pun try amek 2-3 gamba.. pastu terus addict amek pic sniri huhuhu

H1N1

2009-08-30T06:58:00.000+08:00

Baru2 nie kitorang dikejutkan ngan satu kes ngeri... H1N1 melanda UiTM segamat. And da worst part was ade sorang student part 8 Bacc meninggal..

so , kitorang suma pakai mask to prevent diz penyakit. mcm mls nk pakai, tapi takut mati maa....

pape pun, al-fatihah pada arwah...

My angel growing up!!!

2009-08-30T06:54:00.000+08:00

haha anak buah aku dah makin besar!!! umur dah setahun dah!!

CUTI!!!

2009-08-30T06:16:00.001+08:00

You know it’s high time to update your blog when friends are beginning to SHOUT that you should in the SHOUTbox. Phew, this blog needs major cleaning i tell ya*manyak cobwebs* (and yes t-rex, i know the grass needs cutting). Does anyone even read this blog anymore?Sorry for the late updates, i know i should’ve write something at least to imply that this blog is still on the go but i was just too immersed in even I don’t know what. Yup, ’cuti’ can sure do that to people eh?

Shhhhhh.....

2009-04-02T11:27:00.000+08:00

Like a black sheep in a family....
but its all faded awaycoz 2day, i feel so lucky 2 have such nice and warm hearted clasmmates...
thnx guyz.....

to najib, riena, ieha, zaf thnx 4 ur support...n tq 4 kwn ngn aku. n 2 all my classmate yg xnk aku kene bar, i owe u guys.

to PM Kamel, no comment. hehe...xdela, sorry wat sir mara2. jmp next sem wif diff paper
bye

APRIL FOOL????

2009-04-02T11:15:00.000+08:00

HEPI ANNIVERSARY to my beloved parents!!!

BILE RUMAHKU TERBAKAR!!!

2009-04-02T11:00:00.000+08:00

Haaa...ni la die bahana lupe.patamak btol mamat sekor neh. punce segalaREZA> .ade ke bole lepak2 kt ruang tamu..isap2 rokok...tgk aku men DotA...padahal die lupe die ngah panaskn kuali kt dapor...ptt la aku rse panas smcm tetibe..toleh ke sebelah tgk dapor da tebakar...ampeh tol..cuak aku da..si patamak ni lagi la, tergamam..huhu...sep bek A.S. tolong padamkn..kalo x bole rentung sume dlm umh 2 kang..ateng da la tdo mmpos time tu..arm da sedo.tp rilex je..patamak tol..fuh..close call la jgk...sbb die aku pn fobia nk msk2 kt umh da..abes dapor umh...suram je jdk...da x ceria da suasana dapor 2..huhuhu...moral die..kalo msk, jgn nk g tempat len..tgk je dapor 2...skali jdk 2 tanda nyer nk bg warning je 2...alhamdulillah xjdk ape..k la...ati2 memasak..renung2 kn...huhu...

Demam........

2009-03-11T10:41:00.000+08:00

argh.. arini aku rase letih giler. badan rase cam nk patah. dah la tulang jek. badan aku rase panas giler. Hidung xabis2 hingus....... pastu duk bwh aircond. mmgla TERbaik!!!

Sob..sob

2009-03-10T01:35:00.000+08:00

its friday n i have 2 go wif my fren wat community service kat umah anak2 yatim muar. first b4 pegi rase cam malas sangat2!! giler rase cam xperlu suma tu... such a waste... i mara2 all da way nk pegi sane. its jz me n izwan in da car.... ktrg carut sane sini pasal mende nie. xtaula pe yg diorg yg len xcited sgt ngn wat mende nie. ktrg cam nk pukul je diorg tuh.
But after ktrg sampai, i tgk muke ank2 yatim tu, rase kesian.... memula no heart feeling langsung. but then after kenal ngn diorg, rs cam nk peluk plak sorg2. theres a twin ni, diorg yatim piatu. time ktrg wat prgrm muhasabah tu, diorg menangis gile2. sEDIH!!! xthn plak tgk. i took few pics but nnt i upload. haha

Getting 'High'!!!

2009-03-06T08:58:00.000+08:00

its not dat kind of high dat some people might understand... its my 'temperature meter' heh..
2day i got busted by JPJ, damn... my fren wat hal again.. duh

I Dun Noe Y???

2009-03-05T03:53:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, sempat pegi Melaka met wif my owl frens... hang out til like 4am b4 we were asked 2 go back by da cops. duh.... none of diz gurl r mine.. am jz there 2 celebrate MR.E's gf bday...
it was so damn romantic dowh... never tot MR.E could b such a romantic guy (pathetic hahaha)... well, hope both of u will b 2gtr til ur last breath dude..

Light

2009-03-05T03:29:00.000+08:00

'Walk 2 da lite...'
i jz can hold em 4 a few secs b4 i had 2 let it go.... it hurts so bad, but i still had to let it go...

its was a hard n tough decision to b made... if, she loves him so much, a much as i love her, just go... i'd rather to stay n look u from far apart..

it hurts so bad dat u even still call me... u said, is it ok if u still keep on calling me, and then i said; 'yeah sure'... but, actually bby, everytime u called me, i felt like u torn me apart! i love u so much...i dont know how to say NO!!

God luck with your new life...just remember, if u ever slipped, im always with u. i'll hold u. i'm with u facing the world, me n you....

to you...alia aisya... sy tgk awk dari jauh je pasni, sy akan ingat awk, sy xkn lupekan awk, sy sll syg awk... take care........sayang

ARGHHH!!!!

2009-03-05T03:05:00.001+08:00

im coming PM KAMEL!!! xnk ponteng dah.., ampun!! hehe

U R INVITED

2009-03-04T00:56:00.000+08:00

heh.. now you guys can put your comment in2 my blog...
thnx 4 ur concern... specially 'jiwakacaw'..

Hepi Burfday!!!!!!

2009-03-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

hepi burfday ayah!!!!!!
smoga pjg umur, mura rezeki, kesihatan berpanjangan!!!!!

love,
azhar

CUTE...

2009-03-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

huhuh.... yah i noe. so wht if get 2 xcited bout my niece?? jealous fella!!!

its time 2 wake up!!!!

2009-03-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

i startd 2 realize smtg. after diz aku cube bangun awal n xnk ponteng2 dah!!! if sape2 terbace ni, if baik hati leh tolong kejutkan ak pagi...(specially my classmte).. if xnk xpe.

if u read this....

2009-03-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

am sory so much... i noe where did u found out bout me.. i noe da limit, don't worry.

Shayne Ward

2009-02-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

owh s**t!! my fren tb2 dtg n pasang diz song; "breathless- Shayne ward"........ arghh!!! i like da music but i hate da lyric SO MUCH!!!! it reminds me of da day i said something 2 someone, we were both promised n agreed something n i was so stupid 2 believe everythings gonna b fine! but i still wont regret my decision.... coz i noe, i want her 2 b hepi...

apart of da lyrics:

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say i do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how special you are

You leave me breathless, you're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless, I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams, so beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless.....

They were right.....

2009-02-28T21:41:00.000+08:00

i closed my owl blog bcoz of diz new one...
I tried 2 b someone new but i still got hunted by d owl me.. when i almost b new, i got stucked by diz f**king limitation... sure 'she' was rite, i'll never b someone else. cz i felt so stupid whenever i tried 2 change. yesterday, i paused a minute when suddenly i felt so lonely....... i dun noe y. do i really need diz "new life"????

Not so smooth...

2009-02-28T17:21:00.000+08:00

whats wrong of being me?????
ive tried so hard to make it possible.. i tried 2 b someone new..but yet, it stil doesnt concern u!!

Like d Owl Times...

2009-02-28T04:36:00.000+08:00

this is my owl dumb fren.. nafiz aka dalat....
gler lame aku xjmp dier. dulu2 mase aku diploma dier r yg sll kejut aku bgn pagi. tp bukan dier pegi pun CIBAI!!! penah one day dier kejut aku bangun pastu dier suh aku kejut dier plak??? bengong pe??

MCD shooting!!!

2009-02-28T04:30:00.000+08:00

hahah ni kat mcd segamat ngn membe umah aku a.s....

Single.....

2009-02-28T04:19:00.000+08:00

would she hear me, if i calls her name....

Back 4 Good.....

2009-02-28T04:10:00.000+08:00

pada hari jumaat baru2 nie, my owl fren came by n we hang out kat teratak... aku baru je abis test PD then trus pg mkn.. lapa dowh.. clas pm kamel telajak lagi.. adui. aku dah janji nk dtg.. cmne r??

HAHAHAHAHA

2009-02-23T01:46:00.000+08:00

time 2 break da rules!!!!!
rase cam nak rompak bank je. tapi tbe2 naluri aku xsedap.

When da Lecturer gave a boring speech......

2009-02-23T01:26:00.000+08:00

Family Baru!!!!

2009-02-05T05:58:00.000+08:00

mase kakak aku kawen. yang sebelah aku tu kire abang ipar aku punye adek. yang baju kurung kebaya merah xnmpk muke tu....ehem... sepupu aku la huahuahua!!!

2009-02-05T05:55:00.000+08:00

wajah2 seseorang itu dapat menggambarkan betapa murni atau busuknya hati mereka. pada contoh gamba di sebelah anda ialah gamba lelaki yang soleh dan berhati mulia....

What if.........

2009-02-05T04:34:00.000+08:00

theres no music?? hah cant imagine how dat wud be difficult 2 me.... actually i'd like 2 form a band in here... but it seems like TOO hard 2 get along wif others... naaahh, mayb i'll jz stick wif d old band.

Trouble??

2009-02-05T04:31:00.000+08:00

theres alwys way out... its jz da matter of effort.

SMILE!!!!

2009-02-05T04:27:00.000+08:00

now i think i noe nape org ckp kecik2 dulu aku sgt comel. hahahaha!!!!!

My Dearest Niece!!!

2009-02-05T04:22:00.001+08:00

This is my little angel!!! shes only 6 months ryte nw. adoreable ryte??? aaahhh.....

Wake Up Call!!!

2009-02-05T04:13:00.001+08:00

Glad that finally aku bangun awal n pegi class kul 8!!! giler susah nak bangun hahaha... (pas smayang subuh trus ttdo). naseb baik aritu bapak aku call suh bangun. haha kalu x mmg dh lame bye2 class kul 8.

Why do you Think Am Not You???

2009-02-05T03:35:00.000+08:00

dis is my pic taken by my beloved gurl... but shes barely mine ryte now.. she belongs t someone else.. BUT! i'll try somehaw, someday, to win her heart again, no matter how, what, coz i know, i cant stnad without her.

sayvior!! I need it??

2009-02-04T10:33:00.000+08:00

2day, i started 2 feel such a dumbass.... tell me, did u ever met a guy who let his gurl 2 b wif someone else and pretend that everythings gonna b fine?? i did.... i jz tried 2 make it simple... if she loves me, she'll come back 2 me.